𝐖𝐞 𝐅𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐎𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 | ☆彡𝐧𝐢𝐤𝐢 𝐧𝐢𝐡𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐮☆彡

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dahlis pov:

"hi welcome to starbucks!" i greet.

i'm dying on the inside.

it's so busy and loud, i have my airpods in playing soft music.

after an hour i take my break and grab my cigs.
i go outside and light one.
i take a puff and exhale.

i see a little girl with her dad holding hands and laughing.
why couldn't i have that childhood?
why couldn't i have a good relationship with my father?
one turns into two cigarettes and i try not to cry.

*flashback*

"can you pass me a beer dahlia?" my dad in a drunken state asked.

"ok daddy!" i run and get him a beer from our fridge.

my mom had gone out to work so she could support us.
i miss her, i wonder what she's doing right now?

i hand it to him and he silently grabbed it and kept his gaze on the tv that's playing football.

"daddy? can we go play outside?"

"no."

"why not?"

"cause i said so, goddamnit go play barbies or something."

i sigh sadly and walk to my room.

i hear a knock on my window.
i walk over and open the curtains.
"dahlia hi!" j waved.

"j what the heck are you doing here?"

"wanted to see if you wanted to play soccer."

"sure! but i don't have cleats."

"don't worry about it. i have my old ones. come on."

he helped me climb out the window and we ran to an abandoned field.
(A/N: just two eight year olds vibing without adult supervision. 👍)

after an hour we walked back home and i walk through the door.

"where the fuck have you been?!"

oh no.

*flashback end*

i wanted to cry but i have to go back to work.

*timeskip to after work*

i felt tears tun down my face.
to be honest i don't know why i'm crying.
i'm just sad.
i hate the little cuts that are on my arms.
i look at myself in my mirror.
i hate everything about me.

i put a sheet over my mirror and just sat in a corner and cried into my knees.

just one more little cut.
it won't count as a relapse.

*flashback*

aiden put his arm around me at a dinner with schlatt and his girlfriend.

"so what is everyone getting?" the girl asked.

"i was going to have lasagna and salad." i smile.

"your having all of that?"

i guess that is a lot.

"oh." i mumble and take another look at the menu.

"that's not a nice thing to say aiden." schlatt gripped the menu.

"well i just tell it as it is. and i want my pretty girlfriend to be healthy. isn't that right dahlia."

"yeah." i softly smile.

i can feel the tension in the room.

*flashback end*

all i had was salad that day.
and just a coffee the next day.

over the few years that i've met jared i started getting skinnier and less energy.
it was a living hell.

i was just fine earlier, why am i crying now?

i feel a grumble in my stomach but don't have the energy to get up

i just lay on my floor until tubbo called me.

"hello?"

"dahlia hi! want to join my stream? we're playing on the dsmp." tubbo beamed.

"uh sure! what's dsmp?"

"it's a server i'll ask dream if he can whitelist you."

"ok!"

i load up my pc. "do i stream it?"

"you can if you wanna."

Dahlia Rose :D
@dahlia.rose

JOINING THE DSMPPPP
JOIN MY STREAM twitch/tv@dahlia.rose

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"your whitelisted just join the first world that pops up."

i nod and join.

"ok this is the vc. it's going to be kinda loud since everyone's there."

i join.

"BLOOD FOR THE BLOOD GOD." a monotone voice says.

"TECHNO THATS A CHILD."

"who just joined?"

"me perdonas."

"GUYS!!" tubbo yells to get everybody's attention.

"hello tubs."

"this is dahlia. a new member of the dreamsmp."

"uh hi!"

"smash."

"QUACKITY WHAT THE FUCK?!"

"WHAT?!"

"everyone go to spawn we need to help them."

after they all get there i get introduced to all the voices.

"im sapnap." his character crouched.

"im alex quackity! i may or may not have said smash."

"hi im karl!"

"holy shit hes from mr beast." i mumble.

" im techno. i hate orphans, love potatoes, arson and drop kicking children, and am blood god."

"my names george."

"THATS GOGY!" tommy yelled.

"oh and im fundy!"

"he's a furry."

"no im NOT."

i mute my vc and say to my chat.
"yo i think that guys a furry."

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777 words lmaoooo.
i was busy and didn't post but i'm here, i'm queer and i'm drowning in fear.

anyways make sure you eat food and drink water <33

-indie :D