I just miss to be loved :)

There was nothing to understand, I was the problem

(the things here happened like a day or two ago) the time gone by, it was a month passed by already.i was still broken, but trying to forget my feelings and focus on my lessons much. we are still in the same class and the most broken and unconscious part stars here. it was the lunch break. I ate my lunch and got to the class. I was sitting next to the window so I could watch the garden. I was just watching the sky, the clouds, everything was reminding me of her. I looked down for a second and I saw my best"friend" was throwing an arm around a girl that just looks like my crush, they were sitting on a bench, I looked up again and looked down. I was sure, that was her... in the evening of that day, I texted to my "best friend" and asked that what were he was doing with my crush in the garden (I don't blame him, he didn't now I had a crush on that girl) he said that SHE started to flirt with him a week ago. I stopped for a second. I asked myself a hundred times "didn't she said she wasn't ready?" and I asked my friend back "are you sure you wasn't the one that was flirting?" he said he wasn't and sended me the screenshots of the texts my crush and he had. I was shocked. I felt like I was stabbed from my heart a hundred times. I cryed my -self to sleep that night. I was hating myself. more than anything...