Needing You (you, Series #1)

CHAPTER 33

I was sitting in one of the bench here in our school, napakainit kase. It's so good to be back here in the Philippines after everything that happened. Gusto ko lang bisitahin and reminisce my highschool life. It's been 5 years since that day happened. Kung hindi ko siguro tinuloy, kung hindi ko siguro pinilit ang sarili ko—wala, hindi ito mangyayari. Kamusta na kaya siya, 5 years na akong nagpapanggap na naka move na ako sa kanya pero no. He's still—cliché may it seems— the one for me. I mean he's still my greatest love. Napag desisyonan kong ipagpatuloy nalang dito ang pag aaral ko ng architecture. Namimiss ko na rin sila karly e, sa school na pinasukan niya ako mag eenroll. Pero i should face again the consequences. Nandun silang lahat, except kay damien. I saw him in the U.S, gosh he's a mess. I don't know what happened and I don't want to know. I have my problems too, i will deal this first after them.

"Nandito ka na pala," i froze. Alam na alam ko ang boses na to.

"Leandale" she smirked.

"Kapal talaga ng mukha mo to show up after you left and made your friends look bad no" what?

"What are you even talking?" lito kong sabi, and out of nowhere sumulpot si karly.

"Kasalanan mo lahat kel! Kasalanan mo kung bakit iniwan ako ni damien! Kasalanan mo!" what? She started to scream, what the heck. Ang lakas ng sigaw ni karly, paulit ulit siyang sumigaw nang sumigaw habang natawa nang malakas si leandale.. si dray. Dray is here..? Why is he here? What happened? They're kissing, i can hear leandale's moans. No no no please stop! No!

"Anak," mom, please help. "Sweety, hey." nagising ako nang hawakan ni mommy ang mukha ko. I hugged her and cry my heart out. Anong panaginip yun?? "Shh it's just a dream,"

"M-mommy.." humagulgul lang ako nang humagulgul habang nakayakap kay mommy. The experience still haunt me to death, this is why i don't want to go back in this country. Naalala ko pa rin kung pano ako tinraydor at ginawang masama ng mga tinuring kong kaibigan. How could they think that way when we're friends for years?? And wth is wrong sa panaginip ko? Why would i think to damien that way? Nang kumalma na ako ay lumabas saglit si mommy, i need to call damien too.

"Hi princess," nang marinig yun ay napa-irap nalang ako sa hangin.

"How are you? Are you good? How's life in the US?"

"You know i should be the one asking that, nakauwi ka na pala ng pinas." aa i missed him.

"Biglaan, dad is here in your mom's hospital."

"What? What happened to tito?" i sighed.

"He's suffering, anyway i know he'll be fine. Kailan ka uuwi rito sa pinas?" he's busy also pursuing architecture.

"I'll process my transfer paper kung saang school ka mag aaral bukas," i sighed again. "Ayaw mo ba ako jan? Ang lakas ng buntong hininga mo."

"Ha? No, of course not. Naisip ko lang sila, im enrolled to the same school." narinig kong bumukas ang pinto, hindi ko na tiningnan dahil alam ko namang si mommy lang yan.

"Nevermind them, i'll transfer right away tomorrow para may kasama ka." he's still damien that i know, ang swerte ng magiging girlfriend niya.

Again, i sighed.

"Please press this button ma'am if something's wrong." i frozed, what is he doing here.

"Salamat iho, doctor ka na pala."

"Hindi pa tita, nag aassist lang po." Pag harap ko ay si dray ito, wtf.

"Hindi mo ba kakamustahin si dray, kel?" tumingin ito sakin, fuck. Hindi ako makapag salita, his dark and cold eyes are staring at me. Hindi ko magalaw bibig ko at walang lumalabas sa bibig ko.

"Hello kel,"

"Ay dray!" shit.

"Dray? Anong dray? Si damien ito." oo alam ko! Nagulat ako sa pag tawag mo! Sana kainin nalang ako ng lupa.

"I'll call you later, damien"

"Kausap mo ba si damien? Kailan daw ito uuwi rito?" it's mom.

"As soon as possible daw mom," tumingin ako kay dray, fudge he's still staring. Napa-buntong hininga ako, i don't like this feeling.

"You see dray, she will be studying here again. I hope you'll still look for her."

"Mom," i said in a warning tone.

"Why? You two were friends right?" dati. Again, i sighed.

"lalabas lang ako mom," hindi ko na inantay yung sunod niyang sasabihin and lumabas na. What is he even doing here.

Now what, san ako pupunta. I'm panicking my gosh, and why was he even look at me like that?? Why am i even this shocked eh alam kong magkikita't magkikita kami. Ang alam ko gagawin ko ang lahat just to avoid them pero bakit naman ganito. I must admit, yes sobrang gwapo niya. His brushed up hair compliments his gorgeous forehead. Naka salamin siya and bagay na bagay ito sa kanya. Dagdag bango points oh— wth am i even thinking?? Big ew!!

Nag lakad lang ako nang nag lakad, i didn't noticed na ang layo ko na pala sa room ni daddy sa sobrang haba ng hallway ng hospital na ‘to. I noticed a bench near the end of the hallway and kita rito ang magandang view. This is what i missed here in the Philippines, the city lights. The polluted air and the traffic but it has a mesmerizing view. Umupo ako and enjoyed the view. Looking back, we used to do this too. Tambay sa rooftop ng school, tumetyempo sa mga shooting stars—to make a wish para sa amin ni dray— so pathetic. Hinayaan mo sarili mo to feel that way, kel? And here you are, nakatira pa rin sa past. You're still reminiscing the past, as if may mangyayari.

"Want some?" nagulat ako nang may mag salita. Tiningnan ko lang ito, inaabot niya yung dutch milk na halatang nabawasan na may kagat pa nga ito sa straw. I assumed shey one of the patients here, she's wearing their damit eh. "You don't want some?" dagdag pa nito at umupo sa tabi ko.

"Can you go back to your room?" i think she's 8 yrs old na. Tumingin ito ng masama sa akin.

"Don't tell me what to do," mataray nitong sabi pero lumambot din ang kanyang mukha. "..ate" dagdag niya pa na para bang nahihiya sa kanyang sinabi.

"You're not allowed here, pasok ka na ulit dun."

"Nakakalungkot dun, i don't have friends there kase lahat sila may sakit. The doctor said they have taning," nagulat naman ako sa sinabi nito. "Ate, taning ba means they will not use sunblock when going to the beach? I thought they're sick.." hindi ko alam kung matatawa ako o ano, ang seryoso niya nakahawak pa ito sa baba niya.

"No, taning means they'll be dead soon." she looked at me, shocked. Kailangan kong maging prangka sa kanya.

"Omg ate, are you for real?" is she my sister? Ka-ugali ko siya.

"Yes, baka may malala silang sakit." tumango-tango ito.

"I felt bad for them, i'll ask the doctor if may taning na ako ate" Why is she even saying it as if it's just some kind of a normal words?

"Why? Do you have a serious sakit?"

"Hmm i don't know po, they won't tell me but i have a strong and healthy body and i don't feel sick." ang cute niya. "How about you ate? Why are you here?"

"To get out from the past." I looked at her, she tilted her face as if asking what am i saying.

"Huh?"

I sighed. "You know what, go back to your room and i'll go back to my father's room, how's that? I'll see you around okay?" I smiled and she sighed for defeat na rin.

"Alright ate, see you po."

Inantay ko muna siyang maka-pasok sa room na hindi kalayuan sa inupuan namin. Sumilip pa ako sa room niya at puro nga may sakit ang mga kasama niya. I wonder what's her sakit. I walked again papuntang room ni daddy, ang haba haba naman kase ng hallway na to but that structure of it is good. Namimiss ko na mga plates ko, namimiss ko na mag drawing, namimiss ko na ang university. I wanna go back, i don't wanna be here. Lalo na nakikita ko siya, the man who's standing in front of me. Who's looking at me, eye to eye. I can see his dark brown eyes, his thick brows, those reddish lips. He noticed siguro that i was staring at his lips! Gosh, i cleared my throat.

"How are you?" oh fudge.

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Hellooo! Omg, sorry for super duper late ud!