Diary of a girl

January 21, 2024

Yesterday, I did not go to work because I was very tired and sick of work. Now that I have just came back, I'm feeling it again.

I'm trying to stay away from common social media stuff right now just like facebook, instagram and tiktok... I feel like they are consuming too much of my time, especially with Facebook. Earlier, I stayed up for extra 2 hrs just scrolling around in fb. I could've used that 2 hrs for sleep instead. Now I had only 6 hrs of sleep. Such a shame, right? I need to strictly start sleeping before 2pm again because I've been sleeping past 4pm. I'm gonna try all my best to stay away from fb til the end of the month. I'm gonna try to revert my smartphone thirst to wattpad instead, hoping that it would help me finish a chapter in my story that I've been trying to finish for 7 years... it's also a shame that I wasn't able to finish just one permanent chapter, not even prologue.

I wanted to go to fb again so bad especially now that my mon has been sending me screenshots of toronto canada Canada groups. However, I just don't wanna go back to fb. It's such a negative influence in life, especially making you remember that most people you thought you're good with were actually fake. People like to fight and insult others in fb too, and sometimes I find myself caught in their mess too. I hate it too how it seems like my friends in fb only remember me when they need to borrow money. Wtf am I, do I look like a bank account to them? I'm gonna try to stay away from fb as much as possible. I'm training myself now until the end of the month to not crave for fb, though I know I'll be needing to go back again just to check out those toronto groups I need to familiarize myself with.

12:49 AM and a cockroach is currently bugging me at my computer station. I already sprayed it twice tho I'm not sure if it really worked cuz I can't see it anymore. I tried to use my flashlight, I don't know if it's just hiding or if it's fr dead rn. I can't see it.

Out of nowhere, I had just decided to open the Meralco app in my iPhone and got surprised when we already have a bill that is due on February 1. It costs PHP 3,078.71 and it's for period of December 21, 2023 to January 20, 2024. I am definitely surprised. It's definitely higher than the last two months that only cost around 2.6k but I guess not so surprised either since my brother stayed with us from December 23rd to January 7th so I guess his electronic consumption counts an extra 400. Then I just learned that I can see the payments for the past few months and it ranges around 1.8k... to think before that, my "very kind and generous" second cousin actually never or should I say, "rarely" helped my grandma financially, that must've been very rude to my grandma. He probably thinks he consume just around 300 because he has a faulty electric fan that barely worked and has been begging for mercy to be thrown out, and that he is usually outside for work and his personal activities, well mf he still charges his phone here, even his laptop at times he needed to work at home, he also spend some plenty of time here on his rest days so I'm guessing he's consuming around 600 or even more too. He uses the dispenser too for coffee, he eats here too at times, plus he also consumes a lot of water since he baths and washes his clothes here so it's just a shame how he only decided to help financially when I arrived and he saw me helping my grandma pay her bills and stuff. I can still remember the times he showed how threatened he was by me, how he filled the sink's mesh strainer with phlegm, how he played Tagalog music on the room's bluetooth speaker light, how he pulled my wifi's plug getting me 15 minutes late at work. Mf have some shame btch... now my grandma only pays 1000 for electric bill while I pay the rest, and he decided to pay the water bill as well. At his age, he should be living on his own tbh. He's almost 30, and it's a shame to keep trying to live for free at that age. He has an electric fan that is not working properly (which isn't actually his fan, it's my grandma's but it has been broken). Guess what, rather than buying a new one that is estimatedly just