The delusional diary of a girl

Night, Part 2 (kiss)

Right after our laugh, we looked at each other and smiled. Our eyes locked. We kept staring as if this is it, and my heart started beating faster as if he would move a little ahead or I might, like I really wanted it to happen, but screwing this all up for one kiss is what I am unsure of. Mannn, he's so pretty; his eyes are chocolaty (dark brown), his soft eyelashes, and his brows are sharp. He usually wears specs, which he doesn't currently, so I can see his eyes wide and clear. Looking at him, I gulped my feelings down, analyzing the situation. Then I finally speak up, "Do you mind?" Now he gives me a little pretentious but confused reaction, asking, "What?, umm, sure, I guess.". I slide closer to him and face toward him, then ask, "Can I kiss you?" while thinking in my head so many feelings and calculating every single thing: is this about to happen, am I just going to be slammed down with all my filled-up feelings, or is this too soon? I decided to go ahead with his consent, duh, because I can't hold on to this feeling where I keep feeling things and am not doing anything about it. He is exactly what I want; at least I feel that for now, but I do want to discover more of him. Then he said it in an extremely low voice, nodding his head up and down in nervousness, "Ah, yes." Then I give him a peck. I just feel his lips on mine and look at him, making sure he is comfortable, and he looks at me as if that's it. And I nod, "noooo"  with my reaction, blinking once, look at him with confidence, and take a deep breath, biting my lips. His expression changed, and he smiled with excitement. Suddenly, he slid his right hand on my neck, and then, with his left hand's forefinger, he tucked my hair strands behind my ears. I felt a little intimidated by his confidence while doing it. His thumb is caressing my neck gently while staring at me, and then it feels like fireworks (a song playing in my head,Love me like you do): he kisses me passionately, like he has been actually waiting to do this, biting my lower lip and sucking a little, then my upper lips, using his tongue all over mine by twirling it around, then holds my face and stops. Yaarrr, you are so hot, Tuktuk,he says, and I just smile, press my lips in, and nod, then I move ahead to kiss him back.