𝐕𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐧 (𝐘𝐨𝐨𝐧𝐦𝐢𝐧 𝐟𝐟)✓

5. why it's hurting?

Jimin pov

After 1 week, everything remains the same, but I've been acting like I've grown closer to them - yeah, I just acted, convincing myself, at least. He's flirty, I didn't know that; all the time, he flirts with me like I'm his obsession. Still, I'm confused why I feel different around him when I'm not gay. I'm on a mission, so why am I getting too invested here, with his parents? It's just because I never experienced parental love, and they treat me like their own son - more, even. Every time, I feel something I've never felt in my entire life: GUILT. I feel guilty for deceiving them, for pretending to be someone I'm not, guilty for enjoying their warmth, their love, and guilty for starting to develop feelings for him.

I feel guilty whenever Mom thinks I'm the best for her son. I feel guilty whenever Dad pats my head like I'm his own son. Every time he looks at me with affection, kisses my forehead when he thinks I'm asleep, I'm consumed by guilt. This guilt is killing me!

I wiped the sweat from my brow, thinking about everything. Why does my heartbeat increase when he hugs me or comes close to me? Why can't I push him away when he comes close and softly kisses my cheek? I'm straight, for fuck's sake! I don't want to get attached to anyone. Sometimes I regret taking this order.

Yoongi pov

I just came from OT after critical surgery and it's successful.
I removed my coat and masked.
I'm missing him.. it's just some hours I'm already missing him..
I don't know what I feel for him but it's beautiful just like him.
My baby. The way he look at me whenever i go close to him.
So cute..
I always flirt with him and he laugh or blush.
In this one week I tried to make him comfortable. I can understand it's new for him I think he is not person like open book I have to understand him and I'll love this.

I always think about him.
I rubbed my neck..
It hurts.. it's hurting beacuse of sleeping on couch I'm not used to it..
I'm free now I don't have any case or surgery today so I thought to go home back.

I saw dad rushed in hospital with panicked expressions.

Yoongi : dad!! What happened?

Mr Min : come with me .

I followed dad. We came in my cabin infront of big screen.
I widden my eyes when I saw headlines

SOMEONE GOT MURDER IN KOREA'S BIGGEST HOSPITAL
It's first time or happens always?

Yoongi : the heck!!

Mr Min : CALL EVERY STAF HERE (angry)

Dad sat chair holding his head.

Mr min : my 30 year's hard work ruined in seconds

I went toward dad. In also hella Angry and scared.

Yoongi : dad everything will be ok..

I myself don't know how to handle it..
Soon we heard nurse Calling us

Nurse : s-sir t-there is Media

Mr Min : fuck it!!

Yoongi : d-dad don't worry I'll handle it.

I came outside just to face Media 8 don't care I'll tell them truth it's not our fault.

Reporter : sir is this true? Someone came and killed patient in your hospital?

Reporter2 : sir where were you when murder happened?

Reporter3 : sir do you think this can effect your hospitals image?

Yoongi : can you pls leave us alone we are not in state to tell you something please leave us..