Carved Fantasy (Hacienda Alegre Series #6)

Chapter 5.1

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"IF I WERE you, I'll use every opportunity I have to let my feelings known, Fauna," lapag ni Minty sa tray nito na puno ng snacks nila. She had been my closest friend since Grade 8 so whatever Fauna would share to her would remain their ultimate secret.

Nakatingin lang siya sa pag-upo ng kaibigan saka yumuko ulit para ipagpatuloy ang pagiging abala sa cellphone. Intramurals at Foundation Day ngayon kaya nagpapahinga muna si Fauna mula sa first game niya kalaban ang representative ng Tennis Club ng Grade 11.

They got into this conversation because she needed to talk this topic, sort it out with her bestfriend. Minty wouldn't even say a word.

"He's my brother's bestfriend," mahina niyang saad sabay inom ng tubig. "And I'm so much younger. He will never look at me."

Humalakhak ang kaibigan na animo'y nasisiraan ito ng bait.

"Of course, he will never look at you. Nag-iisip ka ba? He doesn't like you. And most of all, you're a minor. Bata pa nga tayo kasi ang gusto lang natin ay matingnan at mapansin ng gusto natin, but come to think of it...he's almost twenty-eight, Fauna. He will not look at you the way you want to be looked. Kasi bawal, kasi mali. He's intelligent enough that it's now even allowed."

"Alam ko naman 'yon," depensa niya. "Na hindi talaga ako makakatanggap ng atensyon mula sa kanya kasi sa ganoong mga rasons. But I'll always feel that even if I'll react twenty-five, he will never look at me."

"Kasi kasal na siya 'non?"

Bumuntong-hininga siya. Babaliwalain niya ito. This was only part of her teenage years. Mawawala rin ito pagdating ng panahon. Because these things were meant to be forgotten when time passed, she would put them into writing.

"Happy crush lang naman 'yan. Tsaka, wala namang masama kung mag-confess ka dahil hindi ka rin naman papatulan, Fau. Kasi may paniniwala ako, kapag nasabi mo 'yong feelings mo sa crush mo to anyone or to him exactly, nawawala siya agad. For example, I secretly have a crush on your Kuya..." nanliit ang mga mata niya kay Minty. "Which is not true. Sasabihin ko sa'yo...my gusto ako sa Kuya mo, hindi ko alam kung paano mawawala. Nababaliw ako, hindi makakatulog sa gabi kakaisip. When I confess, I will not think about it anymore because I let go of it already."

"Nasabi ko naman sa'yo 'yong akin. Naisulat ko na rin sa notebook. Bakit hindi nawala?"

"Hindi ka naman ako," she informedly her proudly. "What works for me will not work for you. Ang tanging paraan mo lang ay subukan. Confess and see what happens."

"I will not say these feelings to him!" gusto niyang magwala dahil hindi niya 'yon kakayanin. "I have the opportunity but I will not use it."

"May iba't-ibang paraan para mag-confess, Fau. Love letters. Love notes. Mahilig ka naman sa ganoon. Every poem you created, write them down. Put it in his locker or in his car discreetly. Nandito naman ako para tulungan ka."

Minty said it like they would be out for crimes.

Tiningnan lang niya ang kanyang kaibigan kasi may punto naman ito. The desperation to get Dash out of her system was on high level. Gagawin niya ito para sa kapakanan ng sanity niya.

She was busy contacting a publisher because she wanted to have a single copy of her written works, her gift for Dash's wedding day. These words were meant for him from Fauna's...so she would give it to him.

May pen name naman siya. Hindi naman 'yon mahahalata. Hindi rin naman siya komportable na makilala siya ng lalaki bilang may-ari ng kanyang mga tula.

She put down her phone after she sent an email to a publisher. Sumabay na siyang kumain ng snacks kay Minty.