Dark Love

So Long For Now

Dean's P.O.V

I looked at her waiting for her answer. I think it would be a great idea for her to tag along. Seriously 1. She is a Demon and has so much to learn. 2. It's sorta boring with Crowley. I mean don't get me wrong I enjoy it but I would enjoy having time with my girl. But the problem is she isn't mine. But she WILL be mine. 3. Demons need lovin' too, I don't really like those blonde bimbos they are all the same but this time it's different. She is different from everyone else and always was. And I want that. I want her. "Okay great reunion guys. But can you let me down?" Sam looks over to Crowley and he put his arm down and releases Sam. Sam doesn't think of the consequences when he goes head first into a fight. Sometimes he does that is only when he is lucky. I remember it was just the three of us verses the world those were good times...but the good times are over time to start a new era. "Okay playtime is over time to go Dean." Grumbles Crowley. Y/n just looks up at me with curious eyes with her head on my chest giving me a hug. I wrapped my arms around her it feel warm and loving. I melted into it and regained my human side just for a second. I looked down and gave her a genuine smile. Then I thought if I take her with me she could be killed easier and I don't want that. I need her alive, she still needs to adjust to this new form. "I change my mind doll, you are gonna stay with Sammy boy here and learn how to live in the life of a demon. And you two are gonna stay far far away from me. But I'm pretty sure that won't last for long because you two will find a way to cure me i'm guessing?" Sam looked at me with determination in his eyes. But I looked down to Y/n who is standing a few feet away from me I can sense that she is feeling ; angry,depressed, scared, hopeless, and lonely. I feel bad for her she can't control these emotions a part of me wants to hold her to make all the pain go away and another part of me just want to ravage her. Which I could never do so I remain calm and try to get them to leave. "Sam you better take care of MY girl. Teach her crap I don't care, keep her out of trouble. And make sure trouble stays away from her. Got me?" Sam nods, Y/n opens her mouth to protest but I put a finger to her lips. That I wish I could kiss all day. And caress her cheek. "I know you will find me again hopefully it ain't too long because I need to see your pretty face again soon." I had an urge to kiss her but I brushed it off and walked over to Crowley signaling for us to go. I looked back and saw Sam walking over to Y/n and putting a hand on her shoulder. She held tears in her eyes I couldn't bear to see her cry I turned around towards the door. And I heard her whisper, "I came all this way to find you and you just leave again. I just wanted you to come home demon or not." Her human side wad taking over along with mine and I felt a wave of sadness and guilt wash over me. I walked to the door and left with Crowley. I'm sorry baby I hope i'll be home soon. A part of me thinks that anyway.