I wish you were not a mistake I made

day today

I think we all loved someone in our life. Someone made our heart race when seeing them and someone whose barely a touch can make us forget every worry of our life. Some got their love accepted but some were only able to see them from far for some reason. But have you ever loved someone but after some time you thought of giving up on them. Well I know it very well it is not a piece of cake to live without someone whom we love plus we are used to rely on them. What should we do in such situation.........

"Okay! Just let me ask you. Do you remember last year, when we met after these winter holidays...." Asked Shivani.
"Yeah, ofcourse I do.. We met in Nagari" he replied.
"No"
"Then Rajpur"
"No, just stop guessing. I know you don't remember anything."
"I do.. I do.. we met at the baijnath temple." He said.
"Just stop it."
I was disappointed. I wanted to tell him. Last year when we met at a cafe. It was the first time that we didn't meet each other for so long, after getting along.
When I saw him.... Everything got in slow motion. I wasn't listening or seeing anything. Everything got blurred. The only one I could see was you, everything I could listen was you.
It was first time I got such feeling.
Well! There is no space left for disappointment now. I know it very well. You loved someone so hard, even after she left you alone. And I..... I was only someone with whom you expected to play with. It was me who used to feel butterflies for you. But you were just pretending. Pretending to love me, to be with me and to....
Still! I don't think I loved a person who is that bad. At this time I am convincing myself that maybe the situation made you this much bad. It was month of September. My earliest days of graduation.
When I didn't realise you were noticing me and betting to make me your girlfriend........