How To Heal

Chapter One

The large Pine trees passed by in a blur, one after another, thousands of them. Watching the dark and mysterious forest zip by outside the trucks window I felt more relaxed than i had in a while. Living in Utah for my whole life made trees look even more stunning compared to the dust and prairies i was used to seeing. Now in the beautiful state of Oregon i hummed along to some random country song that was playing on the radio, hoping for an end the the 15 hour car ride.

I was bored out of my mind. Being the only girl in a car with 4 out of 8 brothers got tiresome very quickly, not to mention they quite enjoyed trying my patience to see what would make me snap.
"Only 20 more minutes guys-" i shot him a glare "and gal. I can see the gates from here" said Jimmy, the most serious and uptight of my brothers. Although we were all more serious now then we used to be. He shot me a look as i started tapping both my feet and fingers on the dashboard which I knew always drove him crazy.

Because I was the only girl my mom made sure I was always either driving or riding shotgun so I didn't have to be squished in between my huge and annoying brothers. She believed that since i was greatly outnumbered I deserved to be spoiled with certain things. I didn't technically have to work everyday and i was allowed to take up to a week off for "girl problems" which was an extremely comfortable decision because she decided to tell the whole household at once. The guys teased about it for weeks but in the end, I'm permitted to take time off and they aren't. I only take a day off if my cramps are so bad i want to cry, which isn't often. I loved working on the ranch, it was my favorite thing to do no matter what work had to be done.

Entering the wooden gates of our new property, I was surprised to see that the trees started thinning out which would make it much easier to ride through. soon the trees just stopped altogether making room for large meadows and beautiful rolling hills with grass and wild flowers. It was probably the most beautiful thing i have ever seen. There was a river ran into a waterfall and a large pond we could use for swimming in the distance. The nerves in my stomach about moving started to diminish and i started feeling a little excited. This would be good for us. A new start. Pulling up to the large three-story house where all of the other cars and trailer were parked. Since it was already getting kind of dark we all hurried to unloaded the horses and their tack and feed before parking the trailers behind the house. We had 67 horses in total with many foals to be born soon.We were breeders after all, it's what we do and I love it with every ounce of my being.

After everything was unloaded and the horses stalls had been made up for the night we all took a tour of the house. Along with being three stories it also had a basement so i figured my brothers would turn it into a gym/game room. There were more rooms than I could count so i quickly made my way to the third floor knowing that I would want a higher room that had a balcony. I love sleeping under the stars so i would have to set up a cot outside for when i wanted to do that.The room was large and spacious, which was good because i loved doing yoga and i really didn't need to be knocking into stuff when trying something new. The walls were my favorite shade of dark blue and I couldn't wait to get some white paint and start writing quotes on the walls. The room was already furnished with a queen swing bed, a large white desk, i decent sized closest and drawers which didn't matter much because I didn't have a lot of clothes. but my favorite part of the room was the The floor to ceiling books shelves on one wall that had already been filled with new novels I had yet to try.

"Kids come down here for dinner" my mom shouted making sure she could be heard from all the way down stairs. The chatter through dinner was constant as we all enjoyed microwaved pizza and grilled cheeses. As always there was never a quiet moment as even though we had spent the whole with each, there were still stories to share.

Sadly though my mind was occupied with the coming Monday. It would sadly be my first time going to a regular school and I was terrified. I was never a fan of people to begin with but after I had been diagnosed with social anxiety at the sad age of 12 I hate meeting new people or going places that I was unfamiliar with. My whole family had always been homeschooled so luckily I wasn't the only one that was nervous but my brothers were great at making friends and everyone loved them so they weren't concerned. Not feeling so well i excuse myself and walk to the barn knowing the horses can always brighten my mood.