It was three in the morning and I was still not sleeping. I was up, my eyes wide open wondering what to do. till that time I was lying on the bed listening to stiches and staring at the wall. I unlocked my phone, and opened omegle. I talked to a few people and after that I changed the interest to 'self-harm'
I got connected to a guy named Nathan, I started talking to him and he was like the nicest person I spoke to. he told me how his life was and what he was going through, it was tough. really tough. we exchanged our kik usernames and started talking. he asked why did I have that tag. Mu started.
I started typing, ' I am 17 years old and you could call me a fuck up. my breaking point was when my father died. I was 14. it was really tough for me to handle my mum and my elder sister. they were like two dead but alive people. they did not talk to me neither anybody and I could see how hurt they were, I was just 14 even if I wanted to help, I had no ways to or even if I had ways I just couldn't do it. a year later my mum died, she had serious depression and leukemia. I was just 15 and I had no parents. I had a sister, a sister who was almost dead. she had some mental issues and I couldn't do anything but put her in a mental hospital, she came back after 3 months and she was one fine crazy lady. she used to break lamps, she used to bang her head in the wall, cut herself. anything she wanted to and there was nobody except me to take care of her and stop her. I use to run and just hold her and sit and she used to cry.' I said. 'Well now I work in Starbucks and earn for me and my sissy, she's doing well but now I don't know about myself', I continued.
I was about to cry and he messaged, 'it's going to be fine, trust me'. And it actually calmed me a bit. he was nice to me and I liked talking to him. he asked me where did I stay and I told him. he told me his address and we were just 15 blocks away from each other. he said 'I don't understand, how have I never seen you around' and I said 'neither have i'. it was 4 now and he said you should sleep it's pretty late and I just said 'night' and went to sleep.
I liked talking to him, he for some reason made me feel good. maybe for just and hour but he did.
I slept for 10 hours and that was more than enough. It was 2:00 pm and I was shocked. I had never slept so much. I got off the bed, ran to the washroom, brushed and washed my face. I checked on my sister and she was still sleeping. It was something really normal for me because she slept till 4. I bathed and made some food before she woke up. I was just sitting and eating waffles when my the phone vibrated, it was Nathan of course. 'Wakie-Wakie sleeping beauty'. I told him that I had been up since two and he said I just woke up. we were talking when my sissy woke up, I told him I would talk to him later. I hugged her and she kissed me on the cheek. I took her to to the washroom, brushed her teeth and afterwards gave her some coffee. It was a day off for me because I worked alternate days. It was tuesday and I had to take emma (sister) to the doctor. I got her ready and drove to her doctor, they had arranged something for the special patients. they told me to leave Emma there and come back when they call. I went home and started talking to Nathan. he asked me if I wanted to meet or not. I was acting a bit shy at first but then I agreed.
I locked my phone and just changed my clothes. I wore a tank and a ripped jean with vans. I took my phone and some money and left the house. I locked the door and ran like a goose. He told me to meet him near my place. I reached and I saw a guy standing there. really hot. With green eyes and light brown hair, looking at me. he wore a black tee and light blue ripped jean with the same vans as I wore. He came toward me and said 'jess?' and it was Nathan.
