Tu belle mon amour

Till death do us apart

Well , don't know where to start but here we are days have passed since you last heard about my story but lets kick it off , from Friday call to weekend the Friday night starts with some worrying some really bad things happened to her but we keep things personal I can't say them it's private . I helped her clear her things but things are still on a verge any kick and it falls , but i was feeling some sort of pain in my body my body started to hurt every stress every emotion every anger and anxiety grew kept killing me , i feel like im dying i keep feeling dizzy , I didn't eat food for 2 days properly tongue became dry i was worried that something is happening my brother's girlfriend is a doctor she did a quick check I showed signs of fatigue pale skin sickness high fever jaundice told me immediately get a check up , i was stressed about Retaj , she was going through a lot even though it was nothing to do with me or its not related to me but i care deeply but in the end . I can't force it things don't work like that , anyways Sunday morning at 5am im on the floor of the bathroom dizzy couldn't walk woke up went to my bed i can feel something is wrong i slept , told her about my health condition out of privacy i wont mention what happen to me , so i woke up at 4pm told her im going for a check up and behold my fear was right i got that disease tested positive i feel like I'm dying my eyes are red my head hurts my legs hurt I can't move im sweating from leg to head up and down
My family is worried she is worried most importantly, I don't want her to cry if my heart was taken out of my body to be examined you  there was a power to see how much love i have for her it would never end and it only bleed for her i'm not feeling well i have consumed so much water my health is not good at all she is worried about me i wish i can tell her physical that i will be okay but I can't 😣 I don't know how to live without her i told myself ill take her pain away but im weak right now without her im so weak
I cant let that eyes of her shed a tear ill be in so much pain whenever she cries i cry man these not words that's reality i wish I could show her instead of words cuz words in the end of the day i just want to recover as soon as possible and just see her that's the only thing i want