It swirls around in my head
swaying me this way and that
like the trees in a powerful wind
like the sea in a storm
my thoughts are crumbled around
disoriented
I dont know what to do
I dont know who I am
What I believe in
Am I happy?
Am I sad?
Can one person even feel all of this at once?
I have to block it out
I live my life in the mist
it protects me from the pain
i dont want to feel the pain anymore
that's why I do it
that's why I act like a child
everything was simple as a child
everything was happy
I just want to be happy again.
