Finding comfort ~ Yang Jungwon ff

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trigger warning: Selfharm !

Flashback:

"They-, they're gone..." U-jin whispers. "What?" I ask not having heard him, "They're gone..." U-jin says again. "Huh, what do you mean?" Yoobin asks. "THEY'RE DEAD! DO YOU UNDERSTAND? THEY'RE GONE, WE WON'T SEE THEM AGAIN, THEY AREN'T ALIVE ANYMORE!" He screams to us. Yeong-joo and Yoobin drop to the floor. U-jin punches the wall. Yoobin starts crying more and Yeong-joo just stares in front of her blankly, while re-experiencing the red carpet from earlier that night.

Yeong-joo's POV of the flashback:

I snap back out of my trance when I see a red stain on the floor I look where it is coming from and it's U-jin's hand. "U-jin! Your hand!" I say getting a nurse. The manager takes us home after U-jin got his hand treated. The car ride was silent and there was a gloomy athmosphere. When we got home everyone just straight up went to their rooms. Except me, I froze in front of U-jins room. I heard him crying and punching his pillow. My heart broke and I felt a sharp pain in my chest. I am about to enter my shared room with Yoobin, we shared the room because we had to from our parents, not because we didn't have the space, but because they wanted us to stay close and to confide in each other when we had no one else to talk to about it, but as I touched the doorknob my hand stopped Yoobin was crying too, and not just crying he was wailing. My heart broke more and the pain just got stronger. I run to the bathroom, not wanting to bother my brothers when they are emotionally a wreck. I start crying too, but decide to take a shower. After the shower I can't help but cry again. I think about the red carpet again, and about my devastated brothers. I start to feel the pain more as I start breathing faster. I drop to the floor and don't know what I should do. I feel I'm short on breath and that I am not getting enough oxygen. I start seeing blurry because more tears are welling up with the second. "Hel- help-...U-jin?" I say seeing a shadow of someone as I'm lying on the ground 'Who is that?' I think as I see the shadow of a girl as well.

U-jin's POV flashback:

I was lying in my bed and I had cried for an hour or something. And then all of a sudden Minji came in, my best friend. She walked in my room and pushed the curtains open. "U-jin oppa, time to get out of bed. Don't act depressed but start taking up the roles you need to take up. You get to mourn but don't stay like this for too long." she says, she sits next to me on my bed. "I've experienced it already, so I know how it feels. You can be sad it's normal, but don't do nothing or you'll actually become depressed... You've got siblings remember, they're young!" I turn facing her. Then we hear a clang. "OMG! We should go check it out..." she says whilst pulling me out of bed. I get pulled towards the hall and I hear Yeong-joo crying pretty hard. I've never heard her crying so hard. I realise I actually should start taking care of them better, I'm about to walk to Yoobin's room when we hear a thud. I quickly go to the bathroom where Yeong-joo is and open the door. She is lying on the floor hyperventilating. Yoobin has ran here by now tears on his cheeks. Minji says "You stay and comfort Yoobin, I'll take her to the hospital ok? I'll call you as soon as possible.". I grab Yoobin who is now freaking out over Yeong-joo. "She'll be okay" Minji says putting the fainted Yeong-joo on her back. When they come back Yeong-joo looks lifeless almost all her colour is gone and all the emotions as well. Minji hands me a puffer and a bag, "This is what you should use if she gets a panic attack again, okay?" I'll stay here for a few days to help alright, so you get to mourn properly as well okay?" she says. "No it's okay I should be responisble..." I say after sending Yoobin back to bed to sleep a bit, as we had a long night. "Oppa, it's not because I said you should be responsible you don't get to be sad or mourn, just don't drown in your sadness. Talk about it with me or just cry next to me." she says taking some pots to cook and cleaning the glass on the ground. I look at her for a while from the couch, but after a while of staring into space, I go to my parents room. I start going through their stuff. I cry again but realise they had quite the life actually. I start to accept it a bit but not completely. I don't think I could ever because they were murdered. It's evening and I finally get Minji to sleep in my bed as I sleep on the couch in my room. In the evening i cry a bit also thinking about how Yeong-joo's birthday is now also the day her parents died.