You Little Idiot..

I'm Afraid..

Honestly, school was boring to Ein. He didn't wanna learn anything, he was bad at math, bad at chemistry, physics, you name it. The only thing he wasn't bad at was English. English was the only thing he had an A+ in. The others were at best a C+.
Thing is, he loved listening to music. He would listen to it in class, in the halls, at lunch, everywhere. Sure, it annoyed his teachers, but he was passing the class, so they didn't really mind.
However, someone kept coming up in his mind, and that person was Pierce. The school bully and best on the football team. Now see, Pierce has bullied Ein since middle school, and hasn't stopped since.
Ein hated Pierce with his whole being. He wishes that they would just be friends again..

Ein never really knew what love was, either..the friends he had all left him when he needed them most. Aphmau, KC, Zane, Aaron, Kim..they all left him. The only one he was friends with now was Noi. Noi was the only one that didn't leave him to hurt. He always cared about Ein for some reason. He's the only one that gets him. He gets how Ein feels.

Pierce on the other hand was perfect. He was a straight A+ student, he was on the football team, he had massive amounts of friends, everything a girl could think of in a guy. Hell..guys thought about him too..
The secret that no one knows is that Pierce has a massive, massive crush on Ein. He hides it really well.

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Ein's POV:
I was skipping class, laying down in the nurses office. Sure, I could go to class, but I didn't want to.
I fake being sick to skip class and sleep.

However, my mind was flooded with images of Pierce. Vulnerable. Weak. Begging me to keep going. I felt hot, squirming while I layed on the nurses bed.

I felt my face get hotter and hotter, so I tried to calm myself down but nothing helped at all. Maybe if I go get some fresh air, I'll calm down. I sat up and waved goodbye to  the nurse as I strolled out of the room.

Holy fuck..what was that..? I've never had anything like that happen to me before, and especially while thinking about him. I hate him, I hate his face, his smile, his laugh, his walk, his..chest..and his abs and all that..I hate it. I hate him so much. What the fuck was this feeling? What was going on? Nobody should think of their bully that way..right..?

Oh god..I'm so fucked up..

Pierces POV:

I had just finished my training for today. Whew..it feels nice to take a shower right after training my ass off. As I stepped out of the shower, I wrapped a towel around my waist and started drying my hair. Not even a second later I hear the door open, and who might it be..?

Well, none other than the little crybaby, Ein. I smirked, walking over to put my hands on his shoulders, leaning down to whisper in his ear.

"Why are you here, crybaby? Came to spy on me and take pictures or something~?" I watched as his face turned red right away. God it was so fucking fun to tease him..

"N-No! I-I just wanted to get some fresh air to clear my mind..! Just let me be in peace right now Pierce- I don't have the energy to deal with you.." He pinched his nose, shaking his head as he walked out of the other doors toward the bleachers.

I would be lying if I said I didn't have a crush on that crybaby. I was crushing on him big time. He was..perfect honestly, in every way. He had the most confusing personality, but he had the softest looking lips, the smoothest skin, a bit of a muscular build(Not more muscular than me that's for damn sure, he's still a twink), the brightest smile, the best taste in music..everything about him was just perfect. God..I wanted him so bad, but I knew I couldn't get him. I'm the school bully here, I have a very big ego and a reputation as the bully. My ego is the most troublesome thing now, because I want that damn boy. But I can't just say it, nor confess it. He probably doesn't even like me. I don't know when I started liking him, but once I knew what I felt, I couldn't turn back.

How do I deal with these feelings, you might ask? I bully him. I shove him against walls, I punch him, kick him, throw paper at his head in class, soak his notebooks, and quite a lot more. I wish I could just stop how I act but it isn't that easy. I've tried but I can't. I can't fix how I act. I want to confess but I'm scared he'll say no. Or worse..he'll hate me. A gay closeted bully.

See, I can't even tell my parents, because they want me to marry a girl. Moreover, a Daemos girl. Don't get me wrong, the girls there are pretty..but they aren't what I'm interested in. I've wanted one person for as long as I can remember, and I won't stop until he's mine.

I love that boy with all my heart, and I've only told one person about it. That person is Leif, he's the only one I trusted with this information. I just..hope he keeps it a secret. I don't want the word getting out that I like a boy..at least not yet. I've had Leif always say to me something along the lines of "You're so stupid! Why don't you just tell the damn dude you like him already?!", but I never have an answer..I think I'm just afraid..

I'm afraid to face my true feelings..I'm afraid to get rejected..I'm afraid to get hurt. I'm afraid he won't like me back. I'm afraid to face what I'm feeling for him.