it will rain • Chaelisa

• Relapse

Point of view Roseanne Park

5 months later...

— So he's enjoying it? — I asked Suzy and she smiled excitedly at me.

— I confess that I didn't have faith in the beginning, I thought he might become, I don't know, more aggressive, you know, but it was the opposite.

— That's good Suzy, I knew this would happen, of course there's a long way to go, but he'll definitely do well.

— He's dying to see the children, but I still don't know how to do it.

— Pretend you're going to take them to the park, something like that, I think it will help your brother's recovery a lot to see them again, and have you found a place for him to stay?

— Yes, I rented a room for him close to my house, I couldn't leave him far away, you know.

— I just advise you to prepare yourself for his lows too, unfortunately relapses can happen, but you can't let yourself be shaken.

— It's the first time I'm dealing with this new brother, you know, it's strange and good at the same time, difficult to get used to.

— I understand Suzy, we end up getting used to so much turbulence and crises, but if we can get used to the bad things, it is also possible to get used to the good things.

— You're right, thanks for the conversation Rose, I'll let you work now, I'm sorry it took so long. — Suzy said, getting up from the chair.

— Okay, you can talk to my boss later. — I said, hearing your laugh.

After Suzy left the room I went back to work, I didn't have much to review, and I was leaving early after changing my schedule, I made the effort to be able to adjust my schedule a little with Lisa's, I didn't want to be alone the weekends to have her company.

Now I also had to share her with college, 5 months since Lisa had started and was more excited every day, it was so good to see her like this, my little sun shining brighter every day.

Our lives had never been so peaceful, I enjoyed every minute of our days, still not believing it was real.

I left work at my usual time, I called Lisa a few times but she didn't answer, I drove home and arrived in a few minutes, the apartment was dark, which made me think she was sleeping.

But when I reached the hallway of the room I heard a loud noise of crying, my heart sank at the same moment.

— Lisa? — I asked, hearing the sound of a shower, the door was open and the scene I saw when I entered made my heart break.

Lisa was sitting on the bathroom floor, her face buried in her legs, sobbing her eyes out. I entered the stall without worrying that I would get wet and squatted in front of her.

- What happened my love?. —She didn't answer me, she continued crying.

I reached out to her, pulling her against me and wrapping her in a hug, I noticed blood running along with the water and I looked at her injured fingers. I just got more confused by the second.

— Lisa, please talk to me. — My voice was scared and desperate.

I turned off the shower and pulled the towel from the shower to wrap around her body, I left the bathroom with her, leaving her on the bed, while I dried myself anyway and put on a t-shirt, Lisa looked completely lost and I had no idea What to do, I picked up my cell phone and dialed his therapist's number.

— Hello, I'm sorry about the hour. — I said, feeling my throat close. — Lisa is having a crisis, she is hurt and won't talk to me.

— Rose, you have to remain calm, is she listening to you?

— Yes, she just doesn't respond.

— So give her the minutes she needs to calm down, stay with her, don't leave her alone, check her pulse and see if her breathing isn't altered.

I did what she asked.

— No, she's just breathing a little faster.

— I'm going to make an emergency appointment for tomorrow, bring her here first thing, ok?

- OK thanks.

I hung up the phone and walked over to Lisa, finished drying her body and offered her a t-shirt, watching her put it on, I took a bandage and wrapped it around her injured fingers.

Then I lay down with her on the bed, hugging her body and listening to her crying, I stared at the clock next to me, watching the minutes turn into hours, until she fell asleep, without saying a word to me, I couldn't sleep. , I kept checking on Lisa every minute to make sure she was okay.

I only managed to doze off a little and was woken up by my cell phone, I realized that Lisa was no longer next to me, and I heard a loud noise coming from the living room.

I got up and walked towards her, watching Lisa hit the punching bag so hard that the ceiling released some pieces of plaster, she looked at me when she noticed me there, and stopped the punches by looking at me.

— My father found me. — I felt his voice crack. — He had the courage to come and talk to me at my work.

— How did he find you?

— My aunt told him everything, where I live, where I go to college, he went to ask me for money. — Lisa punched the bag again as she spoke. - I hit him.

I took a deep breath trying to digest all those words, I sat on the sofa with my hands crossed resting on my two legs.

— Did you hit him? — I repeated, looking at her again.

- I hit. — She said, letting her arms fall around her body, crying again. — He was disgusting, and sick, he said he didn't have money to buy medicine, and you know the worst part of all this?, I felt sorry for him after he hit him, I FELT FOR HIM, FOR THAT TRASH, I FELT SORRY!! —Lisa was screaming with an anger I had never seen her scream before. — He deserves to die, he deserves to spend the rest of his miserable life suffering, just like my mother did.

How many triggers had that activated in Lisa? I really couldn't count, as I hugged her again I felt the same anger, I shared it as if I were inside her body, feeling the hatred grow as I replayed her words in my head.

— Let's go see your therapist, okay?

- No, I do not want. — Lisa said, getting rid of my arms. — Take me to the studio, please.

— Lisa, I already made an appointment with her. — I said trying to convince her. — Do you want to appear there in this situation?, please let's go to the clinic, do this for me?

Lisa nodded and I went to change with her, on the way to the clinic I told my supervisor that I wouldn't be able to work that day, I did the same with Lisa's boss.

When she finally entered the office I stopped to breathe properly, why did he have to come back now?