Savior (Brusnop)

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The only thing I own is the story. The song belongs to Rise Against, I just changed some of the nouns to better fit the story. Like my other fic this is 2 years old and probably some of my best work.

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Danny laid there on the double bed that was centred in the room he shared with the love of his life. His eyes slowly closing as his high was starting to take effect, music played in the background while tears stained his cheeks. He compared his life to the song that had just started playing on his iPod, Rise Against - Savior.

He knew what he was doing to himself but he refused to listen to anyone, he knew they couldn't take away his pain. The love of his life used to be enough to eliminate this pain but over the years they began to slowly drift apart causing Danny's pain to return. Now the only thing that could take his pain away was slowly killing him, he was digging his grave deeper every day.

'It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgotten. What the colour of his eyes were and his scars or how he got them'

As more tears escaped, Danny wiped his face with the sleeve of his sweater wondering why his high wasn't affecting him like how it should. It only occurred to him that the first two lines of the song were somewhat true. He could barely remember the colour of those eyes that brought his peace. The scars that lined the other males arms and the inside of his thighs that Danny knew too well were caused by him. He'd become that accustomed to the scars that he almost forgot how Ben came to get them.

'As the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is dropping. Through the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten. There is no reconciliation that will put me in my place'

It seemed everyone wanted him to kick his addiction and start working on his life and relationship with Ben. Even his mother who was the cause for this addiction begged him to stop to no avail she gave up on him almost like everyone in his life save for those closest to him. The ones who knew exactly what he was doing to himself. Cameron being one of Danny's best mates since childhood had once compared Danny's life to that of their song 'Reckless And Relentless'.

'And there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds. But seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you. Like walls that we just can't break through until we disappear'

That's exactly how Danny felt. He always felt like a failure to Ben all those broken promises washed down the drain never to resurface as they were soon forgot, just like everything else Danny had came to know. Alcohol. How could something you consider your best friend try to kill you with the more time you spent with it?

Danny loved his alcohol, Ben had questioned whether Danny loved his liquor more than he had loved him. Of course Danny had told Ben he loved him more but it didn't stop the male from doubting his words.

'So tell me now. If this ain't love then how do we get out? Because I don't know'

Both males had tried talking about their love for one another. Was it love? Or was it some sick game the two played to satisfy their needs. They always went back to the other for more pain. Ben had once called Danny a sadist causing Danny to call Ben a masochist.