LOVE ; dazai & chuuya x reader [✓]

9 : stars.

"you called us? what's up?" chuuya ruffled my hair. dazai swooped in for a hug, squeezing me tightly as i chuckled. "we haven't seen you in so long~ chibi has been so annoying without you..." dazai complained. i laughed, amused.

"what's that supposed to mean?!" chuuya retorted, offended. dazai snickered, before all attention fell on me.

"so... what's up? it's rare that you would call us over, and to your home."

there it was. the long awaited question. i picked at the skin of my thumb, nervous. dazai noticed, and took my hand in his to stop my habit.

"you can tell us. what's wrong?" dazai asked, rubbing soothing circles on the back of my hand.

ugh. his power over me is crazy.

"i..." i started, but didn't know how to continue. i gulped, trying to swallow whatever was building up in my throat. i felt like vomiting. maybe this was a bad idea after all.

"take it easy." chuuya said, causing me to look up at him. "relax. use your words."

i bit my lip, thinking about our good moments together. but then those joyful faces morphed into those of the devil- laughing at me. my world spun, everything seemed wrong. the room felt twice as big, osamu and chuuya felt twice as tall, and i felt twice as small.

as if i was a little mouse, infront of my predators.

"hey. it's okay." dazai snapped me out of it, grounding me back down. "why not we just watch a movie? you can tell us when you're more prepared." he suggested, and my eyes couldn't help but well up with tears.

they were so patient with me, so kind. would they be the same after all this?

"i...sorry. h-hold on." i stammered, hastily wiping away my tears. it was now or never.

"i- i..." i clenched and unclenched my fists, feeling them get sweaty from how nervous i was. gross. "i love you. both of you." i confessed, head down low to avoid looking at their expressions. i took a tiny peek, and my lip trembled. they were looking at me wide in shock.

shit.

"i-i mean, you don't have to reciprocate it or anything! i-it's just a silly little thing, just give me a few months and I'll get over it." i tried to salvage the situation. "i know it's wrong, I'm sorry, just-" but before i could finish my sentence, dazai interrupted me with a kiss.

a startled sound escaped my lips, dazai's right hand on my waist, and his left on my chin.

"so that was what it was about? how silly." dazai teased, breaking away. "...hah." chuuya huffed, pulling me away from dazai to give me a kiss of his own. my body instantly felt lighter, and more refreshed. it felt good.

"I can't believe you would hide this from us!" dazai whined, stealing me away, and giving me a small kiss on the crown of my head. i blinked, still in shock.

"s-sorry?" i apologised, but it came out more as a question. chuuya sighed, and dazai laughed. "we love you back, idiot. if that wasn't obvious by now." chuuya said, and my mouth opened and closed, like a fish out of water.

embarrassed, i buried my face into dazai's chest, whom laughed at my state. I'm sure that bastard found it funny.

"i thought you guys were together?" i asked, trying to move out of his grip. but dazai was adamant on having me in his arms. how embarrassing.

"but both of us love you! we just didn't know how to tell you...because if you didn't reciprocate, then it would've been weird." dazai confessed. "because you know of our relationship together, you might think that we were cheating on each other..." chuuya continued.

"...oh my god." i said, bewildered.

"ugh! if i had known, I would've confessed~" dazai whined, letting me go. "i had to suffer in pain from those petals...it wasn't a very ideal death plan!"

chuuya nodded, deep in thought. "i know, right? it even hindered one of my missions. it was very troublesome." he said, a gloved hand on his chin.

"right. i almost died too, yosano told me to confess now because i was already at the flowering stage." i nodded along.

all three of us hummed, a hand on our chin. a moment of silence, before we looked at each other incredulously.

"what?!"

end. 11/2/24

(a/n: did you guys pay attention to the titles of the chapters? teehee. thank you for accompanying me on this journey! originally, i wanted this to have a bad ending- but i decided against it, lol. there will be one more chapter for a hanahaki disease deviation which i found nice, and some poems. hope you all enjoyed!)

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