The Cutter's Lover

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Tori's P.O.V

I can't believe that just happened. I hugged and kissed Luke. And he didn't pull away in disgust. Wow. I sat on my couch looking at the tv. I was watching Pretty In Pink. My mom wasn't here she had some work to do, but other than that I was extremely bored.

I laid there watching Pretty In Pink, it was one of my favorite movies but I wasn't up for watching it. My wrists still burned like hell, I paused my movie and walked into the bathroom. I pulled out the first aid kit and got the disinfectant stuff.

It burned once I cleaned it, but is it bad that I enjoyed the pain? I don't even know why I'm so pathetic, that I have to resort to cutting as my escape.

I walked out of the bathroom back to the living room. My phone started buzzing and I picked it up and answered the call.

"Hello?"

"Is this Tori?" The male voice asks.

"Um... yes? Who is this?" I was beginning to get nervous. Nobody knew my phone number except for my mom.

"Just making sure." The the phone hung up. I felt like I've heard the voice before but I wasn't sure who it was. I sat back down on the couch and pulled a blanket up and lay down. Playing my movie again.

My eyes start to droop and I get really tired. I usually don't feel comfortable falling asleep at home, alone, but I'm too tired to care. The doors and windows are locked and my phone is right beside me. I hear the door unlock and my moms yapping on the phone as she walks into the living room.

She places a gentle kiss on my forehead before I fall into a dreamless slumber.

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I woke up on my couch with the curtains opened and two more blankets on me. I push the blankets off my small body and stand up, I crack my ankles and back. I smell food and hear my mom singing.

"Mom?" I look at her, she has a pair of blue jeans, and white sleeveless blouse and her hair is up in a ponytail.

"Hey baby, grab a plate." She continues to make breakfast and I grab a glass plate from the cabinet.

Tomorrow I had to go back to school. Ugh, even the thought made me cringe. I hadn't told my mom about my bruised/broken hand. The weird thing is, she didn't even bother to look at me for a while. I simply shrugged my shoulders and tucked into my eggs and pancakes.

After I finished I sprinted up the stairs to get into the shower. I striped off my sweats and sweatshirt and untied my unruly dark hair and turned on the shower, hopping in after it was warm.

After 15 minutes I got out and wrapped the towel around me. I pull on leggings and a long sweater that falls off my shoulder. I towel dry my hair and brush it out. Pulling out my

blow dryer, I start drying my hair.

My day goes pretty I eventful, like always. Mom was out and I was home, so I decided to walk around the park. I locked the house up and headed out the door.

The day was nice, a few puffy clods in the sky. Sun shining birds chirping, my sandals hitting the ground as I walked towards the park. It was a place where I could think.

I pulled out my phone and looked at the time, 11.30. Good, my mom wasn't going to be home by five.

"Hey princess." I heard to familiar voice say. I was sitting on the bench and I looked up. Luke standing there with his black sunglasses on. Jeans, t-shirt and tennis shoes. I smile up at Luke as he sits down.

"How was the party." I ask, Luke just shakes his head and I laugh. I actually laugh, it sounded like I have the hiccups mixed with wheezing. I hate it but I can't change it. Luke looks over at me and tips his sunglasses down.

"What's so funny?" I shake my head, my brown hair fanning outward.

"It's just you were so pumped for the party and now you're like 'I regret it all' look on your face." I say laughing a little. Luke runs his hands through his dark hair and looks at me.

"I broke up with Amber." He says, I look at him wide eyed. My words catch in my throat as I stare into his dark eyes.

"Are you going to say something?" He asks, I shake my head and focus on the rock.

It was a very nice rock. A grey silver-ish color. I really focus on it, something to get my mind away from Amber. I don't know if this is a good thing or bad thing.

"Why?" I ask, breaking my attention away from Luke.

"Because I don't like her anymore." He tells me, I don't believe him. I can't. I laugh nervously, my hands start shaking. I need a blade, blade. Oh my god, I run my fingers through my hair, they were still shaking.

"Are you okay Tori?" Luke lays his hand on my back and I kind of flinch away.

"No." I choke out, I sit up and shakily get to my feet. I need a blade.

"I need a blade." I say quietly, obviously not to quietly because Luke looked at me stunned. I turned on my heel and started heading back home.

"Tori!" I start walking faster and faster. Cut, cut, cut.