the breakup

The breakup.. -gojos pov-

It's been a long time since suguru and i have stopped being friends, and i cant go a day without thinking about it, remembering all the things he's said, everything he said he was going to do, and everything he's already done, it's almost surreal to think of. You would think someone you have been friends with for the longest time wouldn't leave you right? well, i thought that at some point too, but i guess i was wrong

How could such good memories go to waste? all we did together, all we said to eachother, was that all just a waste of time..? no it wasn't a waste, it was everything i could've wanted in a friendship, he was all i wanted in a friend.

It's February 11th and i'm here at jujutsu high, i'm with my new student yuuji, megumi, and nobara, we aren't really doing anything currently since it's after hours, the kids decide that they wanna stay in school with me sometimes for some reason, sometimes i think there only here because of suguru, they know i'm sad, they know that i cant live without him, they know how much this hurt me.

as i sit at my desk i'm eating some sweets, there's some spicy food beside me since i wanted to try it out, but it's too spicy and there's no one to eat it for me, because suguru isn't here to.

yuuji; Gojo sensei, whatcha got there?

i look up at yuuji and give him a small cheeky smile, i often try to hide my sadness because i don't want them to worry, so it's better to hide it

Satoru; I got some mochi and some spicy ramen, do you happen to like spicy foods?

yuuji isn't the type of guy to eat a lot of spicy food, but considering he eats sukunas fingers i think he would be up to give it a try

yuuji; sorry sensei i don't like spicy stuff, it hurts my throat

nobara begins to chuckle in the back as she walks up to yuuji and laughs

nobara: you baby, how can you not eat spicy foods?!

yuuji; I just said it hurts my throat!!

nobara; Oh stop it you literally eat fingers for crying out loud, this is an upgrade from that

Nobara and yuuji continue to go back and forth bickering infront of me, the small smile on my face turns into a wide grin as i begin to laugh at them, Nobara offers to eat my spicy noodles and i nod as i give it to her, Nobara and yuuji go and sit down at their desks and continue to talk to eachother, megumi just sits there and watches, occasionally adding in on the conversation and laughing

i continue to eat my sweets until my phone dings, i look at it and the message is from one of the higher ups, telling me there's an upcoming mission that we need to prepare for in the future, i scoff and text them back an email letting them know that i will prepare my students

As i finish the email i look at my lockscreen and realize there's still that picture of geto i have on it, it was a picture of the two of us at a beach, he was standing in the sand infront of the water, a big smile on his face, the wind blowing in his long black hair as he was turned back looking at me

I turn my phone off and face it downward and close my eyes beneath my mask, i run my hand through my hair and try to contain myself, the memories flow through my head again, why am i so sensitive to this? why do i feel the urge to cry every time i see a picture of him? or even something that reminds me of him? why did he have to leave me? and why did he have to-

Megumi; Gojo.. You alright?

i snap back into reality and look up at megumi, who is low standing infront of my desk, he has a concerned look on his face, his arms are crossed as he waits for my response, i let out a deep breath and respond in a low tone

Satoru; I'm okay, Why are you wondering?

megumi; you just looked like you were freaking out, are you thinking about ge-

Satoru; No.. No megumi i'm not, i'm fine, just super bored

why did i just lie to megumi? cant i tell him what i'm actually feeling? what is stopping me? why do i continue to lie to people whenever they ask me if i'm okay when i'm literally so close to going insane, not literally.. but at times it feels like it, i'm not sure why but sometimes it's just unbearable, i need to get my mind off of it for once, but there's nothing that doesn't remind me of him that i can do anymore.