His Daughter

Chapter 8.

"Dani are you up?" I heard my dad knocking on my door. I've been up for an hour but I'll hell no go outside. "I know you're up! I'm coming in" he said trough the door and i heard him opening the door with a key. He has a fucking key!? "Good morning how are you feeling?" He asked looking at me. "Fine, and you have a god damn key to my door. I'd like to keep my privacy" i said crossing my arms. "It's not your time to start talking me about your privacy" he said and sat down on my bed next to me. I looked down avoiding the eye contact. "Cause I think you won't be having much anymore" he said and i looked up at him raising my eyebrows. "What? I once got caught on drinking and you're going to monitor me 24/7? That's just fucking great dad" i said and looked down again. "Stop with cursing, it's not nice" he said. "And you got once caught have you been drinking before?" He asked, can he just go already. "Nope, can you go i'm going to take a shower" i said looking up at him. "Dani i know that i haven't been a good dad laetly but could we just try to communicate? You're my daughter Dani and I love you, i don't want you to go around drinking like that anything could have happened" he said looking into my eyes. "Well nothing did, and i just wanted to have good time that's all" i said and gave him a little fake smile of mine. "You're underaged and you could have good time without alcohol" he said smiled little back. There was a small silence between us. "Why can't i see mom?" I asked looked at his eyes trying to find if he's gonna lie. "She's just not a good person to be around with. Do you really wanna know?" He asked and i quickly nodded. "Well when she found out that she pregnant with you imidietly wanted to do an abortion, but i wouldn't let her. What do you remember about your childhood?" He asked looking into my eyes and i thinked. Nothing.. Why can't i remember anything, i shook my head no and he looked down. "When you were alone at home she pushed you down the stairs, you hitted your head and had a memory loss" he said quietly. What? "Why would she do that?" I asked and he picked up his head and i saw tiers in his eyes. "She didn't want you.. She never did and she thought that you were taking me away from her and she got mad at you, and none of what has happened isn't your fault" he said looking into my eyes. Wel it is my fault. My own mom hated me.. "Why didn't you split up back then?" i asked quietly. He sighed and studied my eyes. "I thought that she learned to love you but one day when I got home when you were at school i saw her putting something to your smoothie that she used to do for you. I asked her what was it and i saw an empty bottle of pills next to her.. I didn't report her to police cause i still loved her but i loved you more so we got a divorce" he said and he had tiers rolling down his face. "So she hated me" i mumbeld and quickly walked to the bathroom and locked the door. I slide down by the wall feeling tiers running down my face. I putted my hand over my mouth trying to keep myself quiet. " Dani please open the door" dad said knocking in it. I just cried more hugging my knees.
Haha boo you whore
Your own mom hates you
You know what to do
Fat ass bitch do it
Your dad hates you too
Everyone can see that you fame whore
Slut
Bitch
Fat
Whore
Fame whore
Kill yourself
You don't deserve to live anymore
"No no no.. Not again" i said holding my head. "Dani open this door now!" I heard my dad yelling from the other side. I slowly got up and looked in the mirror. I'm so ugly, and selfish and bitch and fat. Why am i so ugly!? I punched the mirror with all the strenght that i had and i scarred in to pieces. "What was that?" He asked. I heard the door crack and he was in. I looked at him and started sobbing. "Oh my god.. Poor honey come here" he said and opened his arms coming closer to me. I quickly run in to his arms arms and just cried letting it all out. I felt him picking me up and carring me somewhere. "Sshh it's okay to cry baby girl" he said drawing circels to my back. He putted me down and i saw that we were in the kitchen. He let go of me and gave me a glass of water. I calmed myself a little and drinked it. "Oh my god Dani you're bleeding" he said and took my hand. I looked in to my knuckles and saw the bleeding. "I'm sorry" i mumbeld looking at his shirt. "You have nothing to be sorry about" he said and took a first air kit under the counter. "I broke a mirror and messed your shirt" i said looking at it. "Honey you know it's fine, i can affort to another shirt" he said and chuckeld. I just nodded and he started cleaning my knuckles. I can't even plan to kill myself in peace. "I think i should take you to therapist" he said quietly. "What? Why?" I asked maybe little too quickly and i quickly shot my head up. "You're not yourself anymore and i can see that you're not okay.. And after telling you that anyone would be chocked" he said and looked me into my eyes. "Well i just found out that the woman who gave birth to me hates me and you kinda ditched me for 7 months" i said and whispered the last part. "You know that it's my job i'm sorry for that. And at least now you know why i don't want you around her" he said quietly too. I just nodded and looked at my lap. "I think you should eat something, you're so light" he said and let go of my knuckles. "Done" he said and smiled. I smiled back and said "i'm really not hungry" he just nodded checking my every move. "What did you want me to stop yesterday?" He asked and i knew exactly what he ment.. Shit what am i supposed to say. "And after your birthday party you wanted me to stop something. What did you mean?" He asked and i knew that he knew.. He's not stupid. "After the birthday party i had a panic attack, it's totally normal i checked from the internet and my head was pounding yesterday and i was kinda drunk and i don't know why i didn't say it straight that i had a head ache" i said and picked my shoulders up and let them fall down. He looked at me for a while and the nodded. "Is it okay if kevin comes for a visit today and maybe some other friends? I was thinking to have a little barbecue?" He asked and smiled at me. "That's fine" i said and smiled a little. "Is it okay tho if i go out with some of my friends?" I asked and smiled. "I don't think it would be a great idea to let you out with your friends that i don't even know and you just got caught drinking" he said and looked at me. "Well you can't trust me if you won't give me a chance to show you some trust" i said and putted a hand on my hip. He sighed and said "if you do anything stupid you'll be grounded. And we will get you something to eat cause you were so light when i carried you, you're under your normal weight and it's not healthy" he said and opened the fridge. I just nodded and watched him take a mac and chees out. Shit. Does he even know how much there are calories in that? "Mac 'n cheese is so unhealthy" i said looking at him. He just looked at me and after a while he said "Dani answer me honestly.. Do you think that you're fat?" He looked me staright in the eye and i just chuckeld little. "What are you talking about? Of course! Look at me" i said and still chuckeling a little. His eyes widened and he opened his mouth but nothing came out. "I'm gonna take that shower now" i said and started walking away. "Dani you're not Fat" i heard him say but i just kept walking upstairs.
He has no idea what's going on.. And he really need to get glasses