Black Whisper

Katsuki

Katsuki P.O.V

The dorm was too quiet when I got back. I looked around for a while. Minjun was nowhere to be found and his phone was lying on his bed. My heart started to race as I went to check his closet. I froze when I saw his suitcase and all of his clothes were gone. I took out my phone and called the guys. I explained the situation before sighing. Why the fuck did he have to choose now to leave. We were so close... Zane and Xiao got home ten minutes later. They checked all the same places I did before cussing in frustration.

"Where the fuck did he go. Why. What is running away from this going to-." Xiao stopped talking when he saw something on the counter. Kat and I followed him into the kitchen. Two envelopes were lying on the counter. One was addressed to us and the other was for Whispers. Xiao picked up the letter to us and opened it. He sighed deeply before reading it.

Dear Gege, Zane Hyung, and Kat Hyung

I want to start by saying that I'm sorry. You guys deserved a proper goodbye but I couldn't give one. I know the three of you are probably really angry but I didn't have a choice. I can't really go into detail but know that I'm sorry.

Gege, I am sorry for being mean to you yesterday. You didn't deserve it but I needed to push you away and that was the only option I had. You've done so much for me. I can never thank you enough. I'm sorry for leading you on and making you believe that I felt something for you. I think I just confused love for admiration. It wouldn't be the first time I've done something like that. I know what you're thinking. You don't believe anything I'm saying but it's all the truth. I love you deeply but I was never truly in love with you. Anyway, thank you for being my shoulder to cry on. Thank you for holding my hand when I felt completely helpless. I'll never forget any of it.

Zane Hyung, I don't even know where to start. Although I have so much to say, I'm not going to say much. You're really pissed and probably thinking all of the ways to beat my ass. I knew how you felt and neglected that for so long because I was scared. I knew all that time. I wasn't oblivious to the way you looked at me or how gentle your touches were. I acted stupid for so long. I hope you can forgive me for that. I also hope you won't be angry for too long. You're blood pressure is already too high. Please watch out for your health.

Kat Hyung, all I need to say is that I love you. I wish it could be in the way I knew you always wanted but I can't. I tried so hard. There is no way for me to express how much I care for you. You are one of the most loved people in the world and I truly hope you never forget that. You gave me more than I could ever ask for. Thank you for that. Thank you for everything.

This letter is my official registration as a member of Black Whisper. I left a note for Whispers. Please make sure that it gets published. I need you guys to understand why I'm doing this. I don't want to be an idol anymore. I've come to hate the one thing I cherished more than anything in the world. I don't share the same dream as the three of you anymore. I've only ever been in the way. I'm broken beyond repair and there is no love that could change that. By the time you read this, I'll already be gone. Don't bother looking for me. No one knows where I am. I don't want to be found. I just want to live my life. Except that and move on with your lives. I know you're all fuming so I'll end this later here. I'll keep up with you guys. Do well and stay healthy. Goodbye.

With all of my faith,

Minjun

Xiao sat down the letter with shaky hands. Zane and I barely caught him before he collapsed. There were tears in all of our eyes. None of us knew what to say or how to react. We just... felt broken. Our safe place was gone. Our glue had disappeared. How could we continue being a group without him? He was our center. He was our everything.

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Forgive me. It's gonna be painful for a bit. Bye, lovelies.

-Thea