Gusttholomule one shots

Lost and found

**Gus and Matt are both aged up to about 16-17 years old in my stories**
TW homophobia, abuse

~Matt pov~
There's nothing I want more than for Gus to forgive me for that night. Acting on impulse like that was just stupid I was tired he was tired I said things he said things...I kissed him...he looked back at me in disgust or confusion, I don't know it was really hazy he hasn't really talked to me since.

**Two weeks ago**
I don't know why I thought this party would have been a good idea in the first place I got invited and didn't know anyone else who would be going so I asked Gus to tag along with me. I thought maybe that night would have been the night to tell him how I felt. He'd been giving me some mixed signals and it seemed like he was excepting of gay people I mean Luz and amity are dating and he's like best friends with them. As the night went on later and later we were both tired and delirious we sat alone together out on the back porch swing of this guys house. We were basically tangled with one another, are legs crossed over each other, shoulders touching. We just sat there and laughed and talked. Titan Gus was just so adorable, the way the tips of his ears turned a rosy pink the same shade as his cheeks whenever he would laugh, his laugh itself putting me into a trance, soft sweet and full of sincerity, his voice tired and lower than normal but still pretty high pitch. The way he gripped my arm when he had something to say that just didn't make any sense once he actually said it. The way he kicked his legs enthusiastically while still sprawled across my lap when he started talking about little things he was so invested in. I don't know what came over me but our faces were inches away from each other, smiling and giggling, our faces both rosy, we were so close to each other I couldn't resist.
I leaned in and Gus followed and we kissed, it was soft and sweet and for awhile it felt like he was kissing me back, then suddenly he pulled away and just stared at me. I couldn't exactly tell what he was feeling but he quickly got up and just left, I just sat there and cried I didn't know what else to do, I left soon after.
I miss Gus, I miss his smile, his laugh, just his presence I miss him being my best friend I wish I'd never kissed him I sat in my room crying myself to sleep. I heard the door of our house open to find my brother Steve standing in the doorway, when he saw my crying face he rushed to me and hugged me tight. I just cried into his shoulder like I hadn't cried since I was born. It hurt so bad I couldn't breathe and fell to my knees I could feel my heart break piece by piece not just cause I was rejected but I lost the most important person in my life.
That night Steve, my brother, and I stayed up late talking about what happened. My mom must've heard the whole thing cause the next day I was awoken by the sound of tears.
"How could my baby do this to me" I heard my mom sob into her pillow from the other room "I didn't raise a homo I raised him better it's good that boy rejected him his parents raised him right" that's all I heard before she walked in to "knock" some sense into me. It wasn't bad she just slapped me and hit me on my arms with a ruler she grabbed from my desk. That was the worst weekend I've ever had I didn't go to school the next day so no one saw the bruises they'd be gone the next day anyways.

*present day*
Gus has been avoiding me ever since that night no matter how hard I try to talk to him he always just avoids me. I guess maybe it might be for the best I don't want him to ever have to get involved with my family. But it didn't stop me from trying to mend my relationship with him. Every other class I have is with him. He even sat next to me in a few of them but he never once looked at me or talked to me. Until today.
"Okay class listen up we've got a partner project due in a week you will be pairing up with the person next to you" the teacher shouted.
A wave of groans and yays filled the room. I lifted my head, this was my chance, this will be my one chance and I can't mess it up. I looked over to see a nervous Gus dart his eyes away from mine when we accidentally make eye contact.
"We should probably get to work on this project it's looking like a big one it'll definitely take a week to finish" Gus said in his normal demeanor. He seemed to hate me less, if he hated me at all I guess but at least he's talking to me!
"Oh yea for sure, how do you want to do this? Should we split it 50/50 or-" I say before he cuts me off
"Together we'll work on it together so nothing goes wrong and we both contribute to each part"
"Oh okay sounds good to me"