So uncomfortable, it's a choke.

Its so uncomfortable, its a leash.

What if we knew that life would be so uncomfortable.
It doesn't matter now.
My heart aches. I don't recognize
But so uncomfortable.
I do recognize.
only the discomfort
I know why but i'll always never know why
"I try to hide but it always finds me", because i hide where she hides.
She smiles at me
Do i smile back?
Like a wet cat who will never escape from the wetness etched onto its fur
I never knew she won't let me live

so i smile back at it.
Since then
After we became one.
I forgot how to smile.