Black Whisper

Zane

Zane P.O.V

Minjun was never an easy person to love for so many reasons. He broke himself continuously for his love. He loved so deeply that he wouldn't hesitate to die for any of us. He was the kind of person who never truly had a place he could call him. Until he met us, he had nothing and no one. That's why we'd tried so hard to be everything he needed but it was apparent to me when he broke down that it hadn't been enough. We hadn't been enough for him. We hadn't done enough for him. He'd hit so much anger and resentment toward us that we hadn't even noticed how angry he was. It wasn't just the company or his parents or himself. He was angry with us too. That made me angry. Why hadn't we noticed any of it? He had so much resentment toward us because of his position and ours. Once Xiao finally got him to sleep, he exited their room and shut the door. Xiao had kept it the exact same so he was able to come home to familiarity. Xiao sat down on the floor between me and Kat with a sigh.

"I didn't realize he hated us that much." My words came out in a whisper. Kat and Xiao turned to look at me.

"He doesn't hate us," Kat replied. I shook my head.

"He does. He hates all of us. Maybe he loves us but he hates us too." Xiao pulled me to the floor and wrapped his arm around my neck.

"He loves us more than he hates us. You have to understand how many emotions he's been feeling lately." I pulled away from his hold.

"I hate myself right now. He doesn't deserve any of this. He deserves more than us. We can't give him what he needs and we're fucking stupid to think we can. There was no reason to bring him back. He doesn't want to be here." Kat slid down beside me. There were tears in my eyes. I did my best to keep it together while Minjun had his breakdown but I couldn't do it anymore. My anger toward him had completely depleted and now I was just sad. I was sad for Minjun. I was sad for the guys and I was sad for myself. We were always destined to self-destruct. We tried hard to keep it together but we just couldn't. "Why are we even here? What's the point of all of this? Minjun was right. None of this was worth it. What he did to become an idol wasn't worth it. What we did to and for him wasn't worth it. I should have never became an idol. I really feel that we would have all been better off if we never met each other, if we never became idols if we never became trainees. I don't want to be here. Neither of you want to be here and Minjun sure as hell doesn't want to. What's the point?" They listened to me quietly and didn't bother to say a word until I was done.

"You say that it's not worth it but have you forgotten how many people we've saved? Have you forgotten that whispers rely on us to escape from their realities? Have you forgotten how close Minjun was to giving up before we walked into his life? Have you forgotten how Kat gave up everything to be here with us, with Minjun? Have you forgotten the amount of time you gave making sure that Minjun could give his all without hurting himself further than he already had? This whole process wasn't just about you us or Minjun. It was and is about everything and everyone we love. We didn't sacrifice the things we did for no reason. We did it because it meant something. It means everything. We mean everything. Maybe not to the company, maybe not to other people, but to our fans and ourselves, it matters. It matters more than our lives. Minjun is exhausted. He's hurt and angry but that doesn't mean he hates or resents us. It only means he needs us to be his breath. He needs us to be his comfort. This is a fucked up situation, I agree but if it weren't for us, his life would be a lot different now." Xiao nodded at Kat's words.

"Kat is right. Everything that has happened to us needed to happen so we could mature and become the people we are. I understand why you feel the way you do and there was a lot of pain but we also developed the love we all needed to gain the strength to keep going. We're imperfect. We're broken and bruised but this is us. It will always be us. We became what each other needed so if nothing else is worth it, know that that is." I didn't say anything else. How could I? Everything they said was true. Everything became the way it did because we had each other. We fought for what we believed in. We loved hard and we didn't give up anything that belonged to us. We never would either because it was ours and that wouldn't change. We would never allow it to.

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Thank you for reading this chapter. I hope everyone liked it. Bye, lovelies.

-Thea