Heeyy! that's my first fanfic so.. uhm, dont have any big expectations on that... But i dont know why i am writting this, anyways..
Dazai has been getting worse and worse for some time, or Chuuya just started noticing it. He always avoided such topics or turned them into a joke.
Chuuya decided to pay him an unannounced visit to his apartment to see how he was doing because he started ignoring everyone around him.
You knock on his door but no one answers but after a while you notice that the door is slightly opened so he decides to enter "Dazai?" He look around the apartment when suddenly you hear him crying in his room
He gets closer to dazai, and sits down next to him
- ''Dazai, are you okay?''
He asks in a concerned tone, even if Chuuya and dazai arent the best buddies, chuuya cares deeply about him.
Dazai's eyes are red and watery when you enter the room. His hands are shaking and he's holding his chest, as if he's having a panic attack. He doesn't even bother to turn around to look at you when he says
"Don't come closer.."
Chuuya stands there, startled and confused, he wants to help dazai, yet he doesnt know if he will make things worse..
When he doesn't give a damn and go closer anyway, he panics more, as if he wants to push chuuya away, but can't.
"Get out! I said GET OUT!!" He shouted, clearly frustrated and angry in addition to being scared
Chuuya steps back a bit.
- ''Are you sure, dazai? You seem terrible..''
Just... Leave me alone, okay? I can't..."
He said between choked breaths, his entire body shaking like he wants to cry but doesn't have the energy for it. His eyes start to tear up again with his shaking hands trying to stop them from doing so and he lowers his head to hide the red eyes.
Then, he sits down next to you, pulling you closer and stroking your hair gently. he's doing everything carefully, as if he doesnt want you to panic more.
Dazai's eyes shoot wide open but he doesn't resist, he leans slightly into you but doesn't say anything, he just keeps quiet and continues to tremble. He lets out a shaky breath and you can feel his body heat, his heartbeats.
- Shhh.. calm down dazai, i'm here.. *He keeps stroking Dazai's hair gently'*
He closes his eyes and tries to calm down taking deep breaths but every breath is shaky and his eyes twitch from time to time. He still seems tense and on the edge so you keep stroking his hair to hopefully calm him down. After some moments he finally speaks again.
- Chuuya... Thank you, for everything..
