Life Goes On

Chapter 7 : Shocked

*Recap*

"No, Katniss. Like you don't even know just how much I love you. Words can't explain how much you mean to me. There's not enough sex in the world to show you how much I love you. There's honestly nothing I can do or say to let you know." "Peeta..." "I'm not finished yet." I nod. "But there is one thing I could ask." No way! He's not actually gonna ask me, is he? He hasn't even said anything, why am I assuming anything? "Katniss, will you marry me?"

I'm speechless. I knew his whispering wasn't about Finn's birthday

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Peeta's P.O.V

"Katniss? You ok?" I ask with concern. She's staring at me, then the ring, then back to me without saying anything. "Katniss, did you hear me? I want to know if you will marry me."

"Real or not real?" she asks.

"Of course I want...." "I asked real or not real Peeta!" "Real. Very real, Katniss. This is something I've wanted for awhile."

I notice her shaking. The way her eyes widen and her hands tremor. An anxiety attack. She gets these whenever she's taken by surprise or stressed. I guess I really surprised her this time.

"I. Need." she says gasping for air. "I need air," she screams before running inside.

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Katniss P.O.V

I dash inside, accidentally running into Annie. "I'm sorry, Annie," I say still running pass her.

I run up the stairs to the wing Annie gave me and Peeta for a our visit here. The bed still isn't made and the bags are barely unpacked. We've been so busy planning Finn's birthday, and other things I guess. I crawl into a ball and begin trying to calm myself.

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Peeta P.O.V

I sit down to the beach watching the waves crash into the shore. Annie comes and sits next to me.

"She's probably scared. She's suffered a lot of loss and maybe the timing wasn't the best."

"But Annie, it was. She hasn't been this happy since before Prim died. Today she was even more herself, like the girl who volunteered for her sister a few years ago. I missed that Katniss and I thought she would be happy about this. About us."

"When Finnick..." she begins, swallowing a lump in her throat, "proposed I was just as scared. I was terrified of losing him and well I did. But if I would've married him sooner, maybe he would've had the chance to see his son at least once." Her eyes begin to water and I pull her in for a hug. I understood her point and she's right. Why wait?

"Thanks Peeta. For the help with today. And the hug. On days like this I really miss him."

"We all do."

"Now go inside and finish proposing to your fiancé!" Annie says playfully punching my shoulder. I laugh and begin heading inside. "Katniss? You in here?" I ask quietly trying to not wake a sleeping Finn. I hear whispering from the room Katniss and I are staying in.

"My name is Katniss Everdeen. I am 18 years old. My home is District 12. I was in two hunger games. I was in the war. The games are over. Prim is.....is dead. Because of me. It's all my fault." My arms instantly wrap around her and she pulls in closer and clenches my shirt. "Peeta I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. It's all my fault they're all dead. President Snow said it himself 'The things we love most, are the ones that destroy us.'"

"Katniss, he's dead. He can't hurt us. We need to move on. Prim would want you to move on." She wipes away a tear and nods. "Okay now, Katniss?" She nods again wiping more tears away. "Ok let's go get you into the shower and then in bed." She nods again.