It All Started At A Jump Park

My first tough trip in life

"Maya! Im so excited to stay in your caravan" i think id said atleast once.

*after the stay (last day)*

"Goodbye caravans!"
"I cant wait to go to the trampoline park"
*around half an hour later*
Maya: Why dont we act like therians, To try experience it or to get better at quads?
"Yessss!"
*at that point im on all fours, jumping like a cat, running like a dog.. But.. Im a human*
Maya: Fun game huh?
"Yeah..."
"Game.." *i muttered to myself*

*at home.*
*remembers that moment*

Whats going on with me.. Why when i was acting like a cat i felt like my personality is a lazy cat, as if i was being forreal?
Whatever. *i scoffed, trying to ignore my thoughts and feelings.*

*I went on my phone rolling around my bed and scrolling through social media*

*next day*

*i wake up, sneak downstairs and eat some breakfast, after a few minutes I go into the living room and grab my phone from the huge box it was layed on*

*i search "therians" on youtube and tiktok not knowing what had influenced me to do that*

*i think to myself* -MIND *why does this look so fun..and i wanna try it out.. Like a quadrobist!*

*a few days later*

Im starting to feel a connection to this activity.. Im starting to feel a connection with these videos, these animals...im starting to feel like.. I found..myself?
No! What are you thinking! You are a christian and nobody will support you just forget it, forget it! *id had said to myself*

Am i a therian..?? Is that why ive had dreams and flashbacks? Is this why i feel like i had a past life, like if i was a.. Black cat.. Or something?
Its impossible. God please forgive me.. I hope this will end well.