20 reasons to stop loving you

Chapter 1

I lay on my bed the same I do everyday. I lay here thinking what I had done. what made him leave. he was the definition of perfection. I remember the day he asked me the question as if it was yesterday. from the beginning I was determined to stay by his side. he was everything a parent would want. he was stable knew where he was going. I had goals, things I needed done. I felt like with him it was all possible. it was like a dream I could wake up at any moment. I didn't think I would. but when and the way I did I could never forget.

*flashback*
I step out my car grabbing my bookbag I'm still in Highschool my senior year. I got held back 1 year, and in the circumstances I'm 18 and left my parents home as soon as possible. I have my own apartment but I spend most of my time at his. Ive been waiting for him to ask me to move in ,but until then I guess the apartment will do. I unlock the door with the key I have. as I step inside I can tell something was off. I walked into the kitchen seeing he had a full course meal prepared and candles along with the table set up beautifully. I felt so full of happiness this must mean he's gonna ask why else would he have something so nice set up. I couldn't hold it I stayed quite and tiptoed up the stairs and bursted through his bedroom door screaming "OMG YES". what I saw broke me". there he lay on the bed Cuddling another girl(we gotta keep it pg yall ;) ) I felt my eyes fill with tears. what made it worse was he simply dismissed me. I ran down the stairs and out the door jumping into my car.

*flashback over*

I still haven't gotten a call a text anything. I hoped he'd show up saying oh Alexa I made a terrible mistake please take me back like I'd seen in movies and read in so much Fanfiction. But nothing has happened. I don't know what made him do it but it must have been me I know we will never get back most likely which is why I call over my friend Denali.
*time skip*
"Alexa it's been a while why can't you just forget him"
"Del I put so much into him I cared no loved him you know how I am I can't just forget"
"I know Alexa but you have to try all you've been doing is asking what happened what did you do wrong when you should be asking what did he do wrong as well"
"He couldn't do it you know it just as well as I do del he was perfect"
"No one is perfect Alexa and maybe that's what you need"

Denali stood up walking into my room and heading over to my drawers in my desk. she sorted through a bunch of notebooks before finding a hard bound light blue unused one. she then went to my nightstand pulling out my label maker. once everything was completed she showed me the journal thing.

I took it in my hands and read the title "Alexa whitewalls love book" I giggled a bit and looked up at Denali
"Del what is this"
"This Girla is the way I will help"
I simply looked at her puzzled
"Alexa you say he was perfect but no one is which is why I'm going to give you 4 months"
"To do what"
"In those four months in this very journal you are going to think of 20 reasons loving him is bad and shouldn't be done"
"Del"
"Alexa do it"
"Fine"
"Thank you now I have to go bye babes"

After Denali left I looked at the book on the coffee table the title was ironic and did I think it would help. NO. But it won't hurt to try I think.

*hello author here I wanted to say waz up and let you know that I appreciate you reading this and I promise the story gets better I love you even you stranger ❤️"