Finding the One

The World She Lives In

Dear Diary,

The date is February 2, 2024. I make my bed as soon as I wake up in the morning. I cleaned the house after making my bed and assisted Anne in preparing breakfast. Baris Abi made a lot of jokes about me while I was eating breakfast with everyone. To give him a solid beating, I wish I knew Karate. AH, being my older brother, there's nothing I can do but put up with him until he finds a wife who will make fun of him so that he can feel my pain. That's the only way I can pass away peacefully. Thankfully, Burak Abi is my lifesaver and my constant source of support.

(Anne means Mother in Turkish

Abi means Elder Brother in Turkish )

I begin preparing for school after that, My Dear Diary. I put on my uniform and braided my hair. I'm not sure why I was required to braid my hair daily, considering that every girl in my school was perfectly coiffed and had her hair pulled back or pulled up in a ponytail. Along with not wanting to wear leggings under the skirt, I wish I could also wear my hair down, but Anne will never let me. Again, my brothers, baba, and Anne won't let me leave the house without it, even though I detest having to wear it. Aggggghhhh, Diary I get made fun of at school for wearing leggings by everyone. Sometimes, even my friends make fun of me. Simply by her Pakistani origin, Anne held extremely traditional views in this day and age. I detest it. My life is something I dread.

However, love is the only true purpose of life, diary. Simply thinking about it makes me blush. The most attractive person on the planet will one day win my heart, and he will then save me from the outside world in the manner of a prince. Hehehe.......

When I arrived at school, the day had gone uneventful aside from hearing Defne's story about how her boyfriend had ridden his bike 125 mph (201 km/h) from another city to meet her because she wasn't feeling well.

They are both too adorable and the ideal couple. I still recall how, after a fight with Defne, he apologized by waiting outside our classroom with the cutest guilty expression.

Will someone go to such lengths for me, diary? If I'm depressed, will he do everything within his power to cheer me up?

What will I do for him?

Maybe, I will sacrifice my life for him just to make him happy if it makes him happy. 

Where are you my Suleiman your Hürrem is waiting for you Love.

Uzakta Değilim

Öyle senden uzakta değilim
Görmesini bilsin gözlerin,bakışındayım
Belki sana senden yakın
Çarpan kalbinin her atışınıdayım...

I am not Far

I am not far from you
Your eyes shall know to look, I am in your looks
Perhaps closer to you than yourself
I am at every beat of your heart...

by Orhan Veli Kanık

Haha, Diary you must be thinking I am going crazy with every passing day but it is what it is you have to bear me. A little tight hug for my secret keeper diary lobe you so much diaroo.

 Now let's have beauty sleep. Good Night Princess will see you tomorrow.

Author POV:

She wrote her diary as normal since it was her habit to do so before going to bed. She curled up next to her stuffed bear and went to sleep after finishing her diary. Upon her falling asleep, her mother came to see how she was doing. She tucked her in the blanket, observed her sleeping figure, kissed her forehead, and then went to her room.