Love, Shiloh

Dear Diary..

September 18th 1986

Dear Diary,

I am so done. I couldn't take it anymore. How can one person cause me so much pain in less then 24 hours? How could I give him the power to do that? I was dumb. Young, naïve and dumb. How foolish of my to actually think that he loved me. Me? Of all people in this word. Me, the girl with all the problems and never spoke a word. The girl who gave and gave and gave to everyone and didn't receive anything in return. The girl whose generosity was often taken for granted and was easily manipulated. The girl who was a doormat to everyone, everyone who walked on her, drying or cleaning their feet from the mud or rain. It was all beginning to catch up to me now. Fuck him. Fuck them. Fuck them all. Nobody really needs you until your gone...

Gone. Gone. Gone. The words echoed around in my head, seeming to get louder and louder drowning out the sounds of my sobs. "Why don't you just go away hmm? Just go away. No one needs you anymore." A voice spoke to me, their tone sinister and dark. "He didn't need you. He didn't even love you, you know? You were just a good fuck to him. Someone to fuck whenever his girl wasn't doing it right. You realize that don't you?" They spoke again. "All you are is a waste of space. Hell, you can't even speak up for yourself. You can't ever tell anyone no. It's always yes with you huh? Always yes and never no. You probably don't even know how to use no in a sentence do you? Of course not. You always have to do whatever someone ask of you and do you see where it's gotten you now? Do you Shiloh? Do you? Now you are nothing. Now you have nothing. You are completely alone. No one cares about you. No one. No one. No one. " The voice said. They were right. I am nothing. I have nothing.

What good am I if I can't even stick up for myself? What good am I if I allow everyone to walk all over me? I'm no good. I am nothing. The voice was right, What am I still doing here?

I won't be around much longer...

Love, Shiloh </3

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