Uncertainty (JenLisa) {ON HOLD}

Ruby Jane

Chapter I

J E N N I E 

I was crying alone in the middle of the heavy rain outside our house, hungry and cold. I was kicked out by my father the night of the funeral. I was just 8 years old. My mother died because of an accident, she was hit by a car trying to save me.

After that night, my father became different, became a monster. Every single day he blamed me for what happened. Losing the one he truly loved takes a huge toll on his personality.

I cannot forgive myself. I was treated like a slave, not even privileged to say No.

I came back to my senses when I heard a soft knock on my door. It was already eleven in the evening.

"Milady, your father is waiting." one of the head waitresses said on the other side of the door. Even if I was treated as a slave by my father, they still respect me as my father's only daughter. I didn't respond, I just stood up and walked past them followed by three waitresses, who were with me twenty four by seven.

"Miss Jennie is here." Someone announced before opening the door of my father's room.

"Father" I greeted, bowing my head as a sign of respect.

"We found someone for you to marry, and you will leave immediately." I did not dare to answer nor look at him. Being married to someone I didn't know is my faith.

My dream is to experience life outside this wall, to fall in love, to get hurt, to experience happiness at least once and to be married, have a family of my own with someone I truly love, just like my Mother.

But I know this is going to happen, so I was prepared for this. I overheard them a few weeks ago about marriage, but being like a servant as I am, I knew there was no way for me to say no. I know life would never be easy for me, to have my existence tolerated and have the privilege to be with my father or to be at least near with my mother's grave.

"You are marrying into the Manoban family. Pack your things tonight, you're leaving tomorrow before the sun rises. You--" he stopped in the middle of his sentence when I tried to speak,

"Father, I–" waiting for my response. I didn't even dare to look at him, I never will have the courage to do so. My tongue retreated and did not even know how to say it to his face that I don't want to be married to a stranger. When he noticed that I can't say anything he continued.

"I want you to prepare yourself, she already paid a huge sum of money." he continued "Your body and soul, your whole life is made for this. You know that." he was staring at me, I can feel it, the pressure he is giving me by just staring at me "If you understand, you can leave."

He had sold me.

I immediately stood up, I retreated and headed straight to the bathroom inside my cramped room, this is the only place where I can be alone so they won't see how miserable I am.

After minutes, someone knocked on the door.

"Milady, Miss Park is here." I did not respond, I fixed myself before going out. There I saw my cousin, sitting at the chair next to my study table.

She's captivating and has a very elegant aura. Her blonde hair is luscious and pretty and her body is to die for, her very small waist with long legs and slim tall figure looked unreal to me. Rosie is someone I can never be...

"I need a moment with her," she said and all the waitresses bowed their heads before leaving the door open.

No privacy in this house.

I sat across from her, silently waiting. We've known each other since third grade, she's my fourth generation cousin so basically we share a set of great-great-great-grandparents. She just pops out whenever she wants, always has her way in anything she wants to do. I envy her so much.

"I heard, you're getting married." she said without even looking at me.

"Yes." I answered.

"You agreed to this?" I nodded as my response. "Jennie, you should reject!"

"You know I can't" I can't and will never disobey my father.

"For once Jennie Kim, try to fight for what is right. This is your fckng life we're talking about." I looked at her and was confused why she's acting this way. I can also feel her anger but still composes herself.

"I–" I stopped, biting my lower lip before I could say anything. I should never say anything against my father. I sat in silence again, until she cut it with a heavy sigh.

"Do you.. resent your father?" I placed my hand on my lap and squeezed my fingers, as I shook my head.

"No, I do not resent or blame my father or anyone for what is happening in my life. I made my father like that, this is all just bad luck."

"Jen.. That was an accident and--" I shook my head again to stop her from saying anything further. Accident or not, I was the reason why my mother died.

"At least, I can now be free from here, from my father." I bitterly smiled at her, I can't even shed a tear with all this.

"Run away with me." The room fell into stunned silence, the unexpected question sent an electrifying jolt through my body, leaving me speechless. "I can help you Jennie, run away with me and I can give you new life away from here, away from your father." She placed her hands on mine and rubbed it gently, I did not respond as I do not know what to say or how to react in this situation.

The long silence stood between us before I mustered up all the courage to reject her offer.

"I'm sorry." I said and she removed her hands on me, leaned her back and crossed her arms and legs, her expression changed quickly.

"You didn't know, did you?" Again, I shook my head looking at her confused. 

"The one you are getting married to is also a woman and a fckng asshle, Jennie. All her previous fiance has run away from her in less than an hour after meeting her. I am giving you a choice right now. Lets run away together, away from all of this." I slightly nod at her, letting her know that I understand.

"Thank you for the generous offer. But I don't want to run away and hide for the rest of my life Rosie, my father will never let me, you know that." I let out a heavy breath and looked outside the window. 

"All I want is to be free from him completely, no hiding, no running. It doesn't really matter who or what that woman is, if this is my way to a complete freedom from my father I would gladly accept my faith." I stood up and bowed my head indicating that our conversation had ended.

"I'm just trying to save you Jennie, because I-"

"Thank you for your concern." I cut her off.

"She's worse than your father." She stared at me blankly for minutes before deciding to give up and leave.

Running away is not an option. I have tried that thousand times already and I always ended up beaten and starved for days, and I am thankful to Rosie for sneaking in my room every time just to give me food and water. But knowing my father with the money involved in this situation, he would definitely turn the world upside down just to get me back, and I don't want that kind of drama anymore. I don't want to run away and hide again. 

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