i need to cry, i need to scream out until my lungs bleed, i wanna be someone and something in this world. my heart and my chest physically hurt. i wish i could write down what i'm thinking. i need to smash my head into a wall, to completely forget about all the things i dare not to talk about. in this world, i am nothing, even if i try to be something, i end up ruining someone else's something. my head feels like bricks, i wish i could forget. i wished for something that i cannot get. i still do. it's driving me insane. i feel all the rage overpowering me and shaming me for what i do. i don't know why i am the way i am. let's not forget about what we had, i don't want you to forget me, i am afraid that the memories we made will vanish. i don't want you to be a stranger.
