Poetry

5/23/21 - Say

It was hard on my body

On my mind couldn't talk to nobody

The games you played

The words you said

Just wanted to close my eyes

And sleep instead

but

It was too real. it was too dark

I didn't know what to do with myself

And I didn't know how to care for you

so I closed my eyes and breathed out

Then I took a step, took a step, took a step back

Sometimes I regret, I regret how I acted

so I guess I'm sorry that I stepped away

I'm sorry that I couldn't find the words to say.

It's like a piece of me was missing

Gone the tears, the jokes, and moments of just listening.

The vacant stares

and betrayal in your eyes,

made me turn away

as I tried not to cry

and

it was too real. you were still gone

I didn't know what to do with myself

I didn't know how to make amends with you

so I swallowed my pain and cried inside-out.

And I took a step, took a step, took a step back

Sometimes I regret, I regret how I acted

I guess I'm sorry that I stepped away

I'm sorry that I couldn't find the words to say.

You were my best friend but

I couldn't keep standing there

You were my best friend but

I couldn't keep standing there

and watch you fall apart

and watch you drown until you were gone.

so I took a step, took a step, took a step back

I put you in their hands, told the truth, and let others handle it

sometimes I still regret, still regret, still regret how I acted

but I'm not sorry that I stepped away

I'm sorry that I couldn't find the words to say.

yeah, I'm not sorry that I stepped away

but I'm sorry that I couldn't find the words to say.