Beneath the Blazer (A Sebtana Fanfiction)

Chapter Eleven: I Don't Wanna Be Alone Tonight

Not that there was any shock, but the funeral was extremely sad. Maddie got up on the podium and read Abbi's suicide note, people paid respects and recalled memories of Abbi from their own lives, telling stories. 

The entire thing was almost beautiful. Everyone came together and shared their love for Abbi, even her bosses came to see Maddie and to apologize. Even in her state, Maddie was polite to her wife's bosses, kindly asking them to leave. 

After the service, Maddie approached us. "Hey guys, I appreciate you offering to help me get back on my feet but honestly I just don't think I can accept that kind of help from you guys, Abbi's company is paying off the house. I'm taking what I can get for it and travelling far away from here to start again. Sebastian, I love you so much and I'm glad I got to see you again. Santana, it was a pleasure. Goodbye guys, best of luck to you" and with that my cousin was gone again. 

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Santana and I sprawled out on the couch, cuddling each other. I kissed her head and she smiled. "I'm sorry your life is so rough, you deserve so much better than these people and this world. You're so special, Seb." 

I smiled at her. "Thank you, it means a lot. I think I'm going to go back to the dorm tonight and see how Rory's doing." 

"You can't always be looking out for him! You just had a sudden death and now you're going to babysit a grown man!" 

"Santana! He's my best friend and room mate. He's important to me and I need to make sure he isn't dead in a ditch!" I stood up and began walking to the door of her apartment. 

"Sebastian Smythe if you walk out that door we are done!" She screamed. 

"We were never anything anyways!" I shouted back before walking through the door and slamming it shut. 

Santana's POV 

How could I be so stupid?  Honestly, he was right. We never defined anything, as far as I was concerned we were just fuckbuddies. I wanted to be something though, I wanted to call Sebastian my boyfriend. He chose Rory over me though, didn't he? 

He did. 

I decided I needed to forget him, I ran to my bedroom and put on a skin tight peach dress with long sleeves and a scooped back, I let my curly hair fall around my neck as I secured it with some bobby pins, I did dark, sexy makeup and put on some nude heels before locking up my house. 

The club wasn't far, I drove quickly to the Finale nightclub. After parking, I headed to the front doors, the music was thudding outside and it made my head pound. I passed a row of smokers before ducking into the club, sweaty bodies in leather outfits bumped against each other to the rhythms of the music which I soon recognized to be We Can't Stop by Miley Cyrus. I grabbed a guy who looked about 25 off of the wall and began grinding on him. He grabbed my hips, sliding his hands down my body. I felt my skin prickle, I was turned on by this. I turned around to face him, he smiled and nodded towards the back room and I grinned mouthing the words "lead the way" 

I followed the strange man to the back of the club, pushing through the crowd of sweaty dancers. When we got there the music was much more muffled. 

"My name is Lee" he said, pushing his ruffled black hair away from his face. 

"Santana" I said with a nod, tucking a lock of my hair behind my ear. 

"So Santana, I'm not sure if I'm getting the wrong idea here but I do need to ask your consent before we do anything-" 

I leaned up and kissed him, he pressed his hands into my butt, feeling me. I pushed my tongue into his mouth, feeling around the unfamiliar area as he returned the favor. I slid my hands against his chest, lightly pushing him against the counter. He turned us around so my back was against the marble, he picked me up and placed me on top of it, I moved closer to his body. He kissed down my jaw as I spread my legs apart, wrapping them around his waist, pulling Lee as close as I could. I kicked off my shoes and began to unbutton his shirt as I moaned. 

"Baby, you feel so good." He whispered. It reminded me of Sebastian, I pushed Lee off of me and hopped down from the counter. 

"Sorry I can't" I whispered, picking up my shoes and running out of the room. I didn't turn back to Lee, I couldn't. I needed something better, something more. 

I ran into something hard on my runaway. I looked up to see a girl, her red hair was slicked back into a ponytail and she wore a bright blue dress. "Sorry" 

"No, it's okay. Do you want to dance?" 

"Sure" I said, we began dancing to whatever the pop song was, we danced close to each other for the entire song, when the DJ came over the speakers. 

"Let's try something new tonight! I want you all to experiment. Even if the person on your left is not your significant other I want you to kiss them, try something new, something daring." 

I looked at the girl. "Do you want to?" 

"Sure." 

"I don't even know your name" 

"Beth"

"I'm Santana" I said quickly before she leaned down to kiss me. It was a good kiss, a really good kiss. Kissing girls was definitely different than kissing boys, their lips are softer and they smell like flowers and they know exactly what a girl needs to get turned on, how to touch and how to feel. 

Beth wrapped her arms around my waist and what had been a kiss turned into a makeout. Her hands were in my hair and mine were on her butt, I teased her by nibbling at her bottom lip. She felt so good against me, it felt so good to be with a girl. She slid her tongue into my mouth and we battled for dominance, her hands dropped to my breasts, before I knew it I had another girl behind me, her hands were on my butt. I turned around quickly. 

"That's my girlfriend, she's down for anything." Beth said

"Want to go back to my place, it's a little more secluded..." I started. 

Okay so... The next chapter is going to be a little different, a lot smutty a little 3 way maybe. Santana is a little crazy this chapter but I think I like this version of her. Sorry for the lack of updates kittens, it has been crazy recently but hopefully this makes up for it. 

What do you think about Sebastian choosing to see Rory instead of Santana? Saying they never were anything? Santana using Beth and Lee as an outlet? Maddie and Abbi? 

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Kate xoxo