Evita♡ (By FlowerGirl231109)

Little panic attack.. (07/03/2024)

Hi guys, i am back. Sorry for not showing up for so long. This little storie will be about something i went through today during math class. You want to know? Keep reading and you'll find out.

So, i was going to math class as the teacher was once again trying to make us quit. But as always noene listened in the beginning.. In the end evryone went a little more quit, but not evryone stopped talking. She asked us if we had any question about assignments or anything else, for the exam we have next week. I did have a question about an assignment that i didn't understand and found hard. She started explaining the assignment with me and asked me what we needed to do next. I knew a lot of classmates were watching how i answered and how she explained. But i got into an panic.. I had multiple questions wrong and was scared i was going to make more mistakes, so my brain came into a internal panic and i coudn't thinks straight anymore. I felt like i was in a prison and that i needed to answer this question right, while others were watching my evry move. In the end i almost wanted to run out of the classroom to the toilet to regain myself, but i didn't want to imberass myself so much that i would feel so sad and crazy. Luckily the teacher noticed and started talking to a student and my crush who were talking when they needed to be quit. She did this on purpose so that i could regain myself and breath a few times in and out. In the end it ended well and i asked about it after class, she said she did it on purpose to give me some breathing time. I was happy with this and in the end i understood the assignment. With thsi experience i realised that i have two main fears: what people think of me and fear of failure. I've always had fear of failure. Evrytime that i went to a ostyopat this fear was there, it had never really gone away. I have never needed to face it too, but now i did. And i felt better afterwards.

Now i've learned and seen that even though i thought making mistakes was bad, it wasn't. Nothing happened, evrything was alright. And my classmates? They didn't give a sh!t about me, what i did or said. Not at all, but maybe they did but that doesn't matter. There opinions don't define me and it's alright to not always do evrything PERFECT. They can just keep there stupid opinium to there stupid selves! And making mistakes is a part of life, it is normal for anyone! The only thing that matters is that you learn from them and move on. Always remember that (;

Love you allll❤❤

-Evita🌺