Hate To Love You

✿ Nishtha Sharma ✿

I walked out of school with my stammering foots not even being able to realise that I failed again!

It's just the starting of my 12th boards year and in the first examination which is the easiest I even failed in this

Ganpati bappa! What am I going to do in other examinations will I be able to pass in 12th? or I'm gonna stay with my juniors? A big No!!

If for a second we forget about my school and think of my father's reaction he is surely going to kill me

He wanted me to clear neet and here I am not even passing in a fucking periodic test

My teacher must have called Papa. I can guess the thunderstorms coming in my way.

I was walking on the lane overthinking on my marks and career

And in no time I reached home I cursed myself so I could walk more slowly

As I entered home

I saw Papa sitting on couch anger could be visible on his eyes

I stepped towards him making my fist strong on my skirt

"So all day you were locked in your bedroom saying not to disturb For This? 10 in biology, 7 in chemistry and
2 in physics! Out of 40. For God's sake nishtha is this what you study? I don't think you study at all because people can score better than this even if they don't study at all" He said shouting his lungs out on me

I closed my eyes in fear he's usually not that short tempered but when something triggers him it's scary to see him like this

Tears formed in my eyes

"I expected this from her I adviced you not to keep a lot of expectations from her she is not good at anything not even in house chores and also in studies!" I heard someone's voice

And I know who she is! My step mother
I named her evil mother
Adding fuel to his anger

I cant take someone else's shit as I shouted "No one asked you anything so stop uttering words from your ugly mouth"

"Mahadev! What type of girl she is? How can she say like this to her mother? Ugly mouth! Abhir I told you so many times not to spoil this girl but you never listened to me and I didn't even said much because you will think I want bad for her but I only want her to well mannered and a good child" She said trying to finger her eyes and she's wiping her tears which didn't even dropped

My father was already high on his anger and my words made him more angry and shouted again at me "Is this how you talk to your mother Nishtha??"

"She is not my mother!" I shouted with all the energy I had in me and ran upstairs to my bedroom letting my tears flow

I entered my room and closed the door and jumped on my bed digging my face on my pillow and crying loud

"I miss you mumma, please come back to me No one in the world loves me! Literally No one not even Papa. I don't have anyone in this world to rely on to share my bad days, good days. To share  my emotions, how I feel? Actually how depressed I feel" I wishpered to myself

It's been 3 years now I lost my mother I miss her a lot. A fucking lot

My father loved my mumma too but now he's over her he has moved on from her the only one left behind is me!
And I can never move on from this loss

I left studying, playing, enjoying and even living life after she left me

And now I'm an introvert myself who has zero friends

I had a big friend circle but it isn't that they left me I just couldn't manage to survive with them with this behaviour of mine

And now when I need someone in my life so desperately I'm left alone totally alone not even on person to share my feelings

Papa stays frustrated with my this behaviour

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