MARK LEE'S POINT OF VIEW
Sorry if I've hurt you. I couldn't give you what you needed, and the last promise I can give. That is for the two of us. There'll be no more blaming. I'm sorry to say goodbye to our past. There's someone else we're destined for.
The word I love you, whenever you say that, I don't know how I'd accept and deal with that. It feels different and isn't the same when I repeat it back. It's growing bigger on my chest, and I'm emotionally breaking down. If I say I love you, I don't think there's anything sweeter than before. There is still some emotion, but it aches so much.
I am becoming increasingly cold and detached from you. That was when I broke down and struck my lowest level. That is why I decided to go away from you: I don't want to make things worse. I told you that I took quite some time to make a decision. I know I wounded you deeply, and I know you want to know why. I also know you would like to fix it.
However, no matter how we fix it, we cannot anymore do it. Notwithstanding every one of my efforts, I was powerless to get past what we were facing. The reason I struggle with those three words when you throw them at me is that I try to catch them, but they burrow into my chest and make it weighty. And there was the point at which I realized I had no understanding what was going on. Like, I woke up and immediately remembered everything.
Several knives were stabbed in my chest whenever I saw you suffering because of me. The moment that I want you to give me more time and space to think about our relationship. I want to decide that I won't regret it in the end, so I don't want to rush myself. I also thought that we would have a happy ending.
❝Do you still love me like before, Mark?❞
The question that made me shiver. I– I can't suddenly breathe. I could see it in your eyes that I'm hurting you so badly.
❝I... I don't know Haechan.❞ That's the only answer that I can say.
❝Is there– Someone else?❞
❝No, I am not seeing someone else.❞
❝THEN TELL ME WHAT'S HAPPENING! Why can't you see it...? Aren't those enough for you?! You're making me so idiot!❞
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FanfictionIn which Lee Haechan considers the end of a relationship with Mark Lee and how it affects his world. He portrays their deep sorrow and desire for the person who used to be the center of his universe. Haechan and Mark's story illustrates the anguish...
