tw: eating disorder behaviors
~i have a feeling i'll be writing a lot tonight~
written on: march 8, 2024
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Sitting in the shower at 4am;
staying there until the water goes cold.
Lying on my father's bed in the middle of summer;
every blanket from the closet piled on top of me.
Counting microwaved peas;
all the way up to twenty.
Sliding across wooden floors in fuzzy socks;
feet as numb and blue as an Ohio winter.
Having a panic attack in the basement;
every night, clockwork.
Timing how long it takes to chug forty ounces of water;
making a competition with just one person.
Mustard packets during a twelve-hour rehearsal;
tap and ballet and jazz all day.
Collecting compliments like trophies;
filling up the empty space in my stomach with butterflies.
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poetry by jungenwunder
Poetrymy old stuff is pretty bad but my newer stuff is much better, please pay attention to when it was written and feel free to start at the end of the book!! i will have trigger warnings at the beginning of chapters when necessary. stay safe, i love you.
