Therapy but in crappy essay style

Birthday Dates

Birthdays are some of the most special times of the year for people. The celebration of slowly turning into an adult. A lot of people aren't lucky with the date of their birth. Whether it's still during school, you have giant tests on it, or people are just too busy. Those are just a couple reasons I relate to but there are so many more reasons why the date of your birth can be unlucky.

Getting into the topic of birthdays being unlucky, one of the first things that pop into my head is it's during school. It's a pretty common thing to happen and it happened to me. I have an April birthday so if I want to celebrate by hanging out with friends it has to be on the weekends which can make it hard. It can be extremely hard to find a weekend that works for everyone. Most of the time it ends weeks after my actual birthday. It can be so frustrating and annoying that there is something worse than just having it in a school month.

Drum roll please, the thing worse than having a birthday in a school mouth is having it in a testing month. Where I go to school we have a lot of standardized testing including PSAT, MStep, NWEA, etc sadly. All this testing just happens to be in April for my school and I end up always having a test on my birthday. When I didn't have as many tests I was able to skip school and hang out with my mom for a girls day. It's been years since I've been able to do that and I miss it. Maybe I just miss not having to go to school on my birthday like my brothers cause lucky them they have summer birthdays. Mentioning my brothers they actually bring me to my next point.

People that have siblings might also understand this having to work your birthday celebration around their schedules because they "can't" miss soccer practice. I hate when my brother uses this excuse cause yeah I understand it can honestly be super important but I know that it isn't. He always uses that excuse to get out of stuff but oh don't worry if it's for a friend he can cancel as much soccer as he wants. I would honestly have my birthday either way I don't care if he's there or not but I physically can't because of the rest of my family. If I try to celebrate without him my family gets mad and then doesn't even celebrate it with me till he can be there. EVEN THOUGH HE DOESN'T WANT TO BE THERE. I'm forced to make everything go around his world even things that aren't birthday related. My one brother just doesn't care at all for my things and the next thing I talk about just further that point.

Moving on to the next thing my brother. He has done so much to get out of going to my family birthdays. It wouldn't bother me if I was able to celebrate it without him. There was this one time that he actually hurt me a little on the inside with what he said. "Can't we just cancel her birthday, it's not like it hasn't happened before." This quote is referring to the time my house burnt down on my birthday causing us to cancel it. While he said this I was in the other room reading and was able to hear him so it wasn't like he was whispering it to my family. The reason why he said this was because our family was making him stay home from soccer practice to celebrate for once. I don't know why this hurt me so much on the inside maybe because I could tell he wasn't joking or the fact he didn't even try to hide him saying it. To summarize basically he doesn't really care but I don't either anymore cause what's the point.

There are so many things that can happen on birthdays making them an unlucky and sad date. Maybe it's school, testing, scheduling, siblings or family in general, maybe someone died on it. The thing is none of this is something you or I can control. You can't control when the school makes you take a big test or when your siblings are being dickheads. The only thing we can do is get through it plus it's only one time of the year so it's not too bad.

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Sorry if I sound like a brat but it's been so long since I've have had a birthday that was actually fun. I understand that probably sound stupid, spoiled and just a brat. I am just not able to think about myself often cause all my friends have their problems and I'm the designated therapist for them. __________________________

Have a great day/night :)