|| 💋 Don't forget. 🎀 ||

|| 🫂 Chap. 1 💔 ||

Skeppys perspective.

TW :
- SH
- mental breakdowns
- tears
- body negative.
Word count. : 467

( Kailo : heya! First angst story. I rp angst tho.)

* Ring!*

I woke up in my bed. I turned off my annoying alarm and sat there.. Alot of thoughts came across my mind..

' Am I worthless?'

' Do people care about me?'

All my thoughts were interrupted by a ' ding!' on my phone. Oh gosh.. hate comments already? I opened my phone to see it wasn't a hate comment, just bad texting me.

🧁 muffinboyhalo 🎀

' skeppy!! hii :D '

Hey bad :00

' I wanted 2 ask something >< '

Yeah?

' should we meet up...
I've been asking for a
while now, usually
it's you but still. '

Erm.. sure!

' mkay! I'll pack tmrw,
also I'm driving-
I'll go in a week tho :3 '

Oh, alr!!
I'll be glad
If u even came
^^

I turned off my phone. Fuck.. why did I agree?! I'm so fucking stupid, the cuts on my arms, my bloodshot eyes, baggy clothes, I'll never change in time!

Fuck, fuck , FUCK!

I'll uh.. I'll start cleaning hahahah!-

I scooped up all the cans and wrappers in my room and threw them away. I realized, it's gonna be a lot more work than I thought..I decided to shower before continuing. I entered my bathroom and looked in the mirror, god.. I look terrible. Whatever. I started to undress. I entered the shower and did the usual, took me an hour, but eh. Not like he's coming tomorrow.. I looked at myself. I began to get the ' whispers.' Basically, a lot of terrible thoughts. I froze and basically dropped onto the ground.  I started to have a mental breakdown.. I felt the hot tears roll down my face, my lips began to feel dry, my skin.. it felt terrible on my body. I used all my strength to get up and get my blade, it's my best friend during times like this.. I pressed the blade against my legs skin. I yelled, it sounded like I hated it but.. it felt so relaxing and.. comfortable in some ways. I started to calm down. I gathered my energy to be able to open the door and flop onto my bed. I heard Rocco enter my room, her / his soft paws interacting with the floor. He jumped on my bed and spun in a circle to get into a comfortable position.

I fell asleep after like.. an hour, I kept having the same dream of Bad yelling and hitting me.. he would never actually do that tho. Right?.. No, no. He's the kindest and most understanding person, he wouldn't take advantage of such a.. useless person like me. What good would it do for him? Aside from being pleased after he uses me.. if that happens, which I hope doesn't..