Dawn- KaySun one shot collection

Episode 61- kafanı kırarım

Notes:

Translations for the two phrases are at the end 🌊🧚🌸💖
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Suna storms out of their room.

This fucker was looking at her lips. He wanted to kiss her. He waited for her reaction; and waited for her to kiss him.

The audacity!

She barges into what used to be his guest room to find him making a tesbih. He left her like that to make a tesbih.

He was calming himself down. Like he needed to calm himself . The room was not enough?

"Seriously?" Suna says angrily

"What now?" Kaya says throwing his head back in frustration.

"You turn the room upside down and come here to make a tesbih"

"Yes!" He answers coldly

Suna reaches for an ornament off the shelf and threw it at the floor making Kaya jump off the bed. "What was that for?"

"This is for you always accusing me of cheating" she says defiantly.

"Tell me I'm wrong" his voice breaking.

"You're dead wrong" her voice sharp. She reaches for a small glass ball and takes it in her hand "this one is for insisting" and smashes it into the ground.

"You've been acting suspicious. You're always scheming behind my back"

"I'm trying to help my sister." she continues "whenever I try to help my sister out it's always 'you're cheating!' enough!"

"You always choose Ferit to help you"

"Zehir gibisin maşallah*" Suna turns around to leave the room. There is no reasoning with him. 

"Suna!" Kaya stops her at the the door.

"Sus be*" Suna bursts at him.

"You're acting hot and cold with me. What am I supposed to think?" Why were his eyes red? Was he crying?

"Don't think!" She yells out.

He insists on having the last word after what he did and still thinks he has a leg to stand on.

No way!

"Suna!" He warns

"Suna" she mocks him "I'm helping my sister an her husband. God forbid their private matters stay private. If you're trying to get under my skin,..." She claps at his face making him flinch and backs away "congratulations!"

"I warned you about seeing Ferit alone and you ignored me repeatedly" he retorts.

"You destroy the room at the mere thought of me being around Ferit then blame me for your tantrums...Again." She can feel her blood boiling under her flesh.

"You act like my concerns are baseless"

She paces past Kaya to the shelf with the decorative ornaments and grabs a small metal sculpture with the intention to throw it at the door; maybe he'll back away from the door so she can finally leave and not engage in this poor excuse of a conversation. However, he rapidly intercepts it in her hand and she became trapped between him the wall. She should've left when he backed away from the door.

Now that she was closer to him, she could see his face more clearly. His face was red. No doubt about it. Did he cry after he left her in their room? Did he cry because he regretted what he said?

'No he brought it upon himself' she tells herself.

"It's the past and it shall stay in the past" he can't keep bringing up that she kissed Ferit whenever he feels insecure.

She takes a deep breath and continues; she didn't want to go there but he forced her hand "Listen...Kaya, I got drunk for the first time in my life...you out of all people should understand"

"Yes, that you wanted him"

"You said it! wanted!"

"We're talking about the present don't try to distract me again. Not falling for your games this time" All of this arguing and for what "This time you intimidate me and want to goad me into a kiss; to do what exactly? Embarrass me? Reject me? Shame me for wanting you?" She makes her lips a thin line and shakes her head nervously "Not fucking happening, Kaya."

"You followed me here because you're mad I didn't kiss you" Kaya says questioningly.

"No no no." She firmly corrects him shaking her head "I'm not mad. Plus it's you who wanted to kiss me and saw I wanted it too but you weren't man enough to do it."

"Suna! You're being disrespectful"

"Learnt it from my husband!" She spits out

"Suna enough" He grabs her arm as she turns to leave. Their faces brought together even closer.

His face was becoming more red. He was definitely crying after he left her. Suna can't fathom why. He did let his anger out on the room and through his hurtful words why couldn't she do the same.

"What? The half apologies are too much for you now?" She feels a bit lightheaded; this is too much arguing for one day even for them.

"You wanted to kiss me too" Kaya says in disbelief.

"Don't change the subject I'm mad you're unreasonable. I'm mad you can't see I want better for us" Suna attempts to defend herself as she makes her way out of the room.

I'm turn Kaya grabs her arm to prevent her from leaving "And that I didn't kiss you". He was clinging on to the possibility that she may still want him.

"You're ridiculous" she shakes her arm trying to free herself from his grasp. She can feel the heat creeping up her neck and her face starting to get warm. She dreaded and knew what this means; tears starting to form in her eyes.

Suna shoves at him with both her hands at his chest. She must leave the room now. He can't see her crying.

"You want this marriage to work too" he pleads questioning Suna. He finally understood. But she can see the tears forming in his eyes. Good. Good he deserves to cry. And she hasn't started crying...yet. Unfortunately, she's close to crying too.

"Let go of me" she has to leave or else he'll see her crying. He can't see her crying. She can't embarrass herself in front of him again.

"I can't lose you" he says a moment before crashing his lips to hers. There is no rhythm in his kiss; only desperation.

No. She can't let him hurt her feelings and insult her and get away with all of this with a just kiss. She breaks the kiss with a forceful shove at his chest but he catches her forearms again.

Her eyes already teared up. What she was worried about already happened.
Only a precious second before he can see her so she does the most logical thing to her and hides her face in the crook of his neck.

This time the tears spill like a fountain.

"We will get past this. Give in to me" Kaya says in an attempt to keep her in his arms.

"No I'll write my own destiny." She says shaking in his embrace. He, in response hugs her tighter hoping this will soothe her.

"Let me in!" He pleads with her. "Allow me to be your side."

"You'll hurt me again" she says pulling away from his embrace and facing him.

"No" he stops her from getting off the floor and she lets him. Something in his eyes made her believe or so she may have told herself and crashed her lips into his again.

THE END 🌊🧚

Translations:

1. kafanı kırarım:
I'll break your head

2. Zehir gibisin maşallah:
Turkish slang for you're really smart
I mean it as sarcasm; basically suna is calling him a dumb fuck
Literal translation you're like poison

3. Sus be:
shut up

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