As my heart is connected to my soul, my mind is not to my heart, and with this comes the realization that what I say comes directly from my mind, I only wish that my mouth would let me speak the words it is singing, words that acknowledge this unwilling love I have for you.
With every breath I breathe I think of you and not even with counting the stars will you find how many times I dream of you; you are all my thoughts will say and the only person my heart will ache for.
It's true I am horrible at my own confessions, but my heart burns when you are not with me, missing you isn't enough to say for it hurts more than missing someone for there is a hollow space in my heart that cannot be filled by any other love.
And it's never your fault when my eyes are filled with water, it is my own mind that causes me to think these awful things that I think, and I will forever regret the times I hurt you; I wish with all of me that your pain would become mine so maybe it would hurt you less.
I still ponder on how to glue back together the hundreds of pieces of you that I have broken; and sorry isn't enough to say when the agony of the pain I caused you rains down on my thoughts; I will forever be sorrowful of the pain I caused you.
And when all comes to an end, will I ever move on from the thoughts of you that I once had? For I know not of your thoughts, but I know fully of my own.
I will never "move on" from you for your name is carved deep into my heart and the scar has already healed; My love for you is permeant and indented on my skull.
My heart aches for you; my mind dreams of you; my arms miss you; and my lips wish for you.
And when all is said and done, will your heart ache for mine in the end?
And will I soon wake up in a sweat, for all these memories were just a dream; all those seconds that I spent with you, were they all for nothing?
For what if all I am is but a replacement for your last?
