Lost in wonderland with crazy Alice

The fear that haunts me

Early Monday morning, the nurse greeted me with a simple good morning, with a slight smile she was preparing me for the exams, she had a trolley with a tray on top with ,  sterile cotton wool, syringes,  small bottles and a rubber wire. The sight of syringes made me sick, I have been afraid of syringes ever since I was little, it just made my eyes tear, the pinching pain of the needle,  ugh.. she said , " are you ready for the tests?, and girl you are still afraid of them? I will try to do it less painful as possible", the smell of antibacterial spray and the spirits used in medication smelled like a mortuary.. it frightens me to the core, the dead bodies and frozen corpses in those freezers or whatever that is they used to store the dead. She was done already she said that I can go home but before I do to collect the medical documents at the reception. She held my hand and said , " girl be brave, something won't go the way we want."
The taxi arrived to pick me up, Maggie got into the car a Mercedes, "Uber is pretty good, for traveling to get to where we need to be.. hmm and dad's been calling me from the time I exited the hospital, wonder what's up with him.. ", checking the phone notifications that were on the screen, she makes a call to her dad, "hello, daddy I just got into the taxi heading home, do I have to get you anything on my way home?", but daddy didn't seem to be very happy or excited , he sounded miserable, "are you alright?, you don't sound good, is mommy okay?", Maggie was worried she was panicking.. "Omg!!, why is this happening to me?," she was fidgeting with her hair curled around her finger, then bending the corner of the folder the receptionist had given her, then straightening it up. Maggie's heart was beating too fast as she started to mumble things and then she went blank.
She woke up at the house, the doctor was beside her she was checking her pressure, he mom was in tears, her father was on the phone with someone in the hall outside the big bedroom, he sounded tensed and He didn't sound like he was being normal. Maggie knew something was off, the doctor was already done with what she was doing. "Excuse me ma'am, I would like to talk to you for a sec.." that is all Maggie heard. Mommy was following the doctor to the door and they disappeared.
I feel so tired my body hurts, maybe it is the medication.. there was a loud sound outside , like the ceramic vase just went sliding down the mantle and crashed on the ground , oh dear!!, did someone push it off ? Mommy was yelling at daddy, someone was shushing, daddy was yelling, what is going on with these people, thought Maggie. She tried to get down from the bed, but she couldn't, she was too tired, she was feeling dizzy and pain just reached to the highest level in her head, it was so intense, agony of that pain was limitless, she closed her eyes tightly, and put her hands to her head.

Next thing she knew, she was there on the bed in a hospital, beeping sound of the machine close to her bed, ticking of the clock, that lay on the wall, it's black numbers all blurred, like shadows. All wires were pinned on her body, a bpm machine attached to her index finger, no noise or sound from the outside, but only pain, accompanied her.
The door opened and the nurse came inside, she was wearing a blue uniform, she carried a file, a pen, and some painkillers in a small brown transparent plastic container. She greeted me with a small smile, "good evening, how are you feeling now?, I am Claudia, I was keeping an eye on you, from the time you came in to the ward, you don't have any idea do you? Of what you are going through.. ? Well my duty is to watch you, your parents will be updated with your conditions by the Head doctor." Maggie had a confused look on her face, she was not on the safe zone..
a month later... "what is for breakfast?" Maggie came down the stairs looking for her mom in the kitchen, Her parents have told her that she was in the safe zone the so called allergy attack or something that was tormenting had been taken care of, but she didn't want to trouble her parents, she kept the pain to herself, maybe that would make things normal again. But there was something weird about her parents, they were always behind her back, if she coughed or sneezed or if she went missing for a few mins or so they would go crazy looking for her.. "eggs and bacon with toasts just like you prefer, some coffee too, it is in the red mug with the big white heart", Maggie's mom Lorie, she was a slender woman with medium long dark brown straight hair,
She was doing the dishes, her father was outside watering the plants, today was a bit different, "am I allowed to go out today, you people aren't at my neck breathing, do I need to be here at home the whole day, it is boring, please say I can go outside, watch a movie, have a normal life like I used to live", I am 15, I need to go around meet people", her mom turned around, she looked at her daughter and said, "we know how you feel, it is just that it is not safe for you to go out alone, you are different, even though you don't feel anything now... later you will". She sighed and she said, " I will ask the doctor, if it is safe for you.., then we shall decide". "Mom, I can take care of myself..", her father came indoors and said, "don't you understand ?, why are you making it so hard for us?, we can't stand it! , if it means that we have to let you go". "I'm sorry, but what are you talking about?, like I am going to die", that line came out... Lorie, slapped her daughter so hard and then she knelt to the ground and started crying. Maggie was shocked, "am I?", her father put his hands over his mouth and started crying his heart out, it looked like someone just died.
The doctors have told them that Maggie would only live if she got lucky, or they just have to expect the worse. Maggie, joined college, just to live as far as her life took her, and she forgot about all the worries, while living her happy days at college.