Between Living and Fading Away

In moments when happiness seems far,
Still, I wear a smile like a shining star.
Without a reason, I spread joy around,
Concealing within, thoughts profound.

Overflowing with self-love, yet,
Longing for someone else's sunset.
Though I possess all that I need,
Why does contentment elude my creed?

Countless stories reside within,
Silently, I keep them hidden.
Amidst the crowd, I stand alone,
Even in togetherness, I find my own tone.

Perhaps within me, flaws they see,
Hence, solitude becomes my plea.
Despite my efforts to blend and mend,
I find myself alone at every bend.

And yet, despite the faults they see,
I share my truth, unapologetically.
Caring for hearts with all my might,
Even if it means enduring the night.

In a world of false affection and deceit,
I stumble, feeling incomplete.
Yearning for love that's genuine,
Yet, somehow, I fail to win.

I may not fit their perfect mold,
But within my essence, stories are untold.
Striving to find my rightful place,
Yet, constantly lost in this race.

Every moment, every day,
I struggle to find my way.
Wanting to be happy and free,
Yet, happiness eludes me.

Perhaps I'm meant to be alone,
For neither do I have a heart of stone.
Neither do I know how to stay,
Caught between living and fading away.