I can't believe I had almost done that.
My head hurt and I just wanted to slap myself. How could I have ever done that. I know why.
I just wanted to scream but I didn't want to hurt anyone by my words. I wanted to scream at loulou "LOOK AT WHAT YOU'VE DONE! " but that would be wrong and mean because she could never have known this would happen. Never known I would reacted like this. But she doesn't even seem to see now what it has done. She is acting all happy and she should be she's on holiday. But it hurts. Hurts like nothing before. Hurts so much I want to die because dying would get rid of the pain when nothing else can. He's just so-so perfect. But why would he ever want me. A broken piece of junk that belongs in the rubbish. I don't understand why anyone has kept me. I'm worthless. Useless. Just a piece of clutter that gets in the way. I don't want to keep going. I've lived in pain all my life, it getting worse over years but this. This is the worst. 10x anything I've ever felt.
I know other people hurt all the time and hide it so well. I use to do that, but for some stupid reason I can't hide mine. It hurts so much I can't hide it. I don't like it. My parents have even started asking questions. Everyone keeps asking how they can help but no one can. That's the truth. I just wish it could get better but it won't. It won't ever get better. Everyone is telling me to forget. To move on. And I'm trying. But gosh! He's just to-to... persuasive. But loulou was madly in love. Well as in love as she's ever been. Just as I was in love as I have ever have been. The thing I don't think she's getting.
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Crazy me
RomanceA girl who is in love. She is so in love it hurts. and when her world comes crashing down and her best friend goes out with her crush. She doesn't know who she is anymore and she doesn't want to live. She tries to regain her strength to smile and wa...
