We met only two weeks or three weeks ago, yet it only feels like a day ago. Not a long time, but still I wonder how I still remember it that well. It was on a Wednesday, and I don't think it was even meant to happen. I was added to a call with you, by one of my friends. I don't know which one added me, but I know I was added by one of them. I don't think I was meant to be added, though, and if I was, it was a last ditch effort. I stayed silent for almost the entire time on that call. Pathetic, I know, but I didn't know what to say. Frankly, I was nervous. Mostly because you were in it. You used to be someone I didn't know at all, a complete stranger, and I had randomly been put in a place with you. I had no words, no thoughts, just "what should I do?". I said a few words here and there, but I never made conversation. I ended up leaving.
Afterwards, only a handful of days later, I was added back into a call with you. With you, and one of my friends. It was only the three of us. We played a game together, and I managed to keep making you two laugh. I had butterflies in my stomach the whole time, but I didn't know why till later. You left when my other friend left. What you said, from my memory, was just "Ew! Don't leave me here with him." I guess you didn't actually like talking to me.
Needless to say, I was hurt. But, we still ended up calling. More and more, and overtime I realized something. I was in love with you. It didn't help that it felt like we'd only just met. I was in love with a stranger to say less. I don't know how I was, or why I was, but I knew I had been. I still am, actually. To my realization though, was that because we'd only been strangers to one another, was that you'd never love me. Especially if I told you now. You'd think I was weird, and a loser, for falling so fast for someone I barely knew. So I kept quiet. Hoping, that one day, I'd have an opportunity to say something about how I felt. But, that'd be a long time for now, and that we would just be friends for the time being.
But, what I had thought would only be a little bit, only felt longer. It turns out, that what I thought would be just a "long" time, wasn't just a month or two. It was a long time. It was a long, long time. A time comparable to forever.
After I realized, life seemed to only get more unfair. You saw me as just a friend, but people told me you actually liked me.
We went to school together. You only had one class with me, and you only had that class with me every other week. You had a weird schedule, but I'd make do with it. I couldn't look away from you. I had to look twice, but damn, you looked good. I was hypnotized.
