Lessons from Hummingbirds, Wild Birds and Desert birds that Live in A Garden

Hummingbirds Meaning, and those that only pretend to see it.

My sister is a good example, of not practicing what she preaches, and only sees through her dark glasses, never seeing the color, never seeing the truth, or what she has done wrong. many people go through life like this, and they are the ones lonely even though they think they have friends. When I look at the hummingbirds in my garden, I see more then birds fluttering about, they enjoy life, they have fun, even if their loners, they know how to stop and smell the roses, so to speak. They don't sit around a wallow in their own self-pity or their muck and mid they have created. "Spring, spring is a time of renewal," a time to start over, and time to forget and forgive," These words from my mother's mouth have rung through my ears for years, but she does not practice what she preaches, and my sister lacks the courage to apologize to me for many things she has said or done, she does not see the light. I have tried over the years and recently, I have always been one to speak the truth and let my feeling out, not harbor them, but they have only turned this against me, and they use it, like the scorpion and to the frog, it's in their nature, to sting. The toads and newts still leap from their mouths, and they are so happy to share with others, I have gotten to the point, "why should I defend myself to others, and set records straight when my sister and mother has lied so much and crafted stories in their own sick minds, and they believe it, to be true. No, I won't waste my time, trying to convince people of this, when it does not good. I am like the hummingbird a loner at times, in my own garden, this is in no way depression either as my mother likes to tell everyone, so I found out. I have known for a long time that my own mother is a Strega, a poisoner, with words. My sister is even worse, and hides who she is, to me, because she doesn't want me to know the truth, she is the poison dart frog, spewing every chance she gets, and doesn't even realize how or that she is doing it.  She likes to post affirmations, her little so called, words, however she doesn't not even have a clue. She might look at a hummingbird but does not see it. She has frozen me out, over the years and now the ultimate freeze out, and my mother has done the same, so they can stay in their make believe, world, that they have created for themselves. I suggest for anyone dealing with the same, live for yourself, see the beauty, don't just look with your eyes, see with your soul and heart, and if family and friends, treat you like you don't matter, or exist, then accept it, have nothing to do with them. For truth always comes out and pond scum floats to the top, and lilies prevail.

Pretending to love another or be there for someone is hypocritical, phony friends and family are the bugs and gnats that birds eat. People that have to flaunt themselves, be center of attention, and steal another's thunder are to be pitied, for they are sad indeed, sure I have gotten hurt and mad that my own sister has done this, but when I get over it, I look it and say, "at least I don't have to go to strangers for attention, and I have never stole another's thunder." I am not so self -centered that I would steal from my own family, and as the saying goes" it's better to be stolen from then to have to steal from another." the same goes for a mother or sister that has thrown a daughter or sibling to the side, in order for themselves to look better, or to have to lie to others. But what can you expect from narcissists, I pity them, and I move on, always have and always will. I am free, free as a hummingbird, and I have learned from my pain and hurts, and eventually we all are alone at one time or another. 

Don't look, see with your heart, your soul, don't hate, but pity, fly free, and the end of the day we endure more than we think we can, and speak the words that are true, and the hummingbird will always come to you. 

When your down and troubled, and think there is no one, friends not there, family has abandoned you, your pain is yours to bare, accept it with a smile, and not a frown, as the days move on, better they are, and the hummingbird is never far.