autumn 🍁

Grieve.
Such a strong word. We all know what it means, every once in a while, we feel that strong, tearing thing inside us. Maybe because you lost someone important in your life, maybe you feel it when you remember your childhood pet, but what if you feel it because you lost yourself? How to fight that emotion if you feel only that?
- Autumn!!
I froze for a moment or two. I knew that angry tone of voice... I really tried to stay calm.
- Autumn, come here this instant!
I slowly approached onto the staircase.
- Yes?
I said quietly.
- Come her now!
I slowly walked down into the large open hall. I was face to face with only thing in this world that was once scaring me, even now I am a bit scared of this man. I fought tigers, I was bitten by a poisonous snake, I survived a plain crash and I am not afraid of a single thing... Accept him.
- Yes father.
He looked at me with haired in his eyes.
- You useless pice of shit!
His arm slapped my face so hard my nose started to bleed. I fell on the cold tiles on the floor. I knew I could return him with even more painful hit, but for some reason my body would not do that. I knew I was stronger than him, but I also knew if i hit him once I would not stop until he is dead, so I was just laying there, looking at my blood dripping down the floor.
- I told you that there will be consequences!
- For what!! I did exactly what you told me, I did everything you asked for! You asked my to spy him for you, I did, you asked my to fight him, I did. I almost died out there! He shoot me in my leg! Just because you wanted his money! Because he lost from you and he couldn't pay you now!!!
At that moment I felt kick in my stomach. I ran out of air.
- You should've been dead very long time ago...
I was laying there trying to catch my breath, looking at him just leaving me there at the floor. He slammed the door of his office on the left side of hall. I tried to get up, but at this moment it just hurts so much. I closed my eyes and rest my head for a little bit.
- Autumn!?
I hired voice of my older brother. We didn't have a best relationship at that moment but I think he was really worried for me.
- Aut, are you alright?
He grabbed my from the floor and held me like a baby.
-Reece...
- It will be okay Aut... I promise...
Our dad was nice when he was sober... But it was so rare...
- It was my fault...
I sad.
- I provoked him...
When Reece walked to my bedroom he gently putted my down on a bed and covered my with a blanket.
- Aut... I know you hate me... But you really need to get out of here...
I closed my eyes. Everything hurts so much...  I just need some sleep.