That is a small song I wrote last night because my light & other half was picked up by his father & uncle yesterday morning but it was arranged by his 'mother' & now the excruciating agonizing pain that I feel deep inside my soul is back & now it's worse than before.
I CANT TAKE THIS PAIN ANYMORE!~ Y CAN'T U SEE!~ JUST HOW WRONG U R!~ Y CAN'T U SEE!~ THAT I'M A PERSON TOO!~ Y DO U HURT ME!~ WHEN I LOVE UR SON!~ SO DAMN MUCH!~ Y CAN'T U SEE!~ HOW FAR I WILL GO!~ FOR HIM!~ I CAN SEE!~ THROUGH UR LIES!~ U HURT HIM!~ OVER & OVER AGAIN!!!!~~~~ CALLING HIM NAIVE!!!!~~~~ TELLING HIM TO BE!~ A MAN!~ THAT HE GAVE!~ A BIG FUCK U!~ TO HIS FAMILY!~ U KEEP HURTING HIM!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~ OVER!!!!!!!~~~~~ AND OVER!!!!!!!!~~~~~~ AGAIN!!!!!!!~~~~~ U HATE ME & I DON'T KNOW Y!!!!~~~ I WAS RAISED TO BE!!!~~~ RESPECTFUL!!!!!!!~~ AND POLITE!!!!!!!~~~~ YET THE MOMENT WE MET!!!!!!!!~~~~ U DISRESPECTED ME!!!!!!~~~~~~ I LOVE UR SON!!!!!!!!~~~~~ I WOULD NEVER!!!!!!!!!~~~~ CONTROL HIM!!!!!!~~~ OR MANIPULATE HIM!!!!!~~~ OR INFLUENCE HIM!!!!~~~ I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!~~~~ BUT IT'S TIME TO SET HIM FREE!!!!!~~~~ I'M HIS FAMILY NOW!!!!!~~~~~~ I'M HIS SPOUSE!!!!!!!!~~~~~ IT'S TIME FOR U TO STOP!!!!!!!!~~~~~~ TRYING TO CONTROL!!!!!~~~~~ EVERYTHING!!!!!!~~~~ WE WANT!!!!~~~ TO LIVE OUR LIVES TOGETHER!!!!!!~~~~~~ WE HAVE DREAMED OF!!!!!~~~ OUR HAPPY LIFE TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~ BUT U!!!!~~~~ HAVE KEPT US!!!!~~~~ APART!!!!!!!!~~~~ AND EVERY DAY SINCE!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~ WE HAVE FELT!!!!!!!!~~~~~ EXCRUCIATING!!!!!!~~~~ AGONIZING!!!!!!!~~~~ PAIN!!!!!!!!~~~~~ DEEP WITHIN OUR SOULS!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~ IT'S!!!~~ AN!~ AGONY!!!!!!~~~ LIKE NOTHING ELSE!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~ I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~ I MISS HIM!!!!~~~~~~ SO DAMN MUCH!!!!!!~~~~~ IT'S AGONY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~ LIKE NOTHING ELSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~ WE R SLOWLY DIEING!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~ SINCE U HAVE BEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~ KEEPING US APART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~ NOW U HAVE SEPERATED US AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~ AND IT'S AGONY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~ IT'S AGONY!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~ IT'S!~ AGONY!~
*Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* I don't know what to do anymore. He left with his father & uncle but she arranged it. She has been trying to get him back to be around his 'support' system, & his 'family'. We got legally married at the courthouse last Thursday. He missed his family but she threatened to ban him from all future family events because be wanted to bring me. *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* She said she doesn't respect or acknowledge our relationship because we *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* kiss or hold hands. *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* I really wanted to come & meet his family & see them again but she said I'm not welcomed. *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* They want him to stay in the city that has all his 'family' & 'support' system because he doesn't have any in my city. *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* So what am I then? *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* We had been *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* wanting to live our life together! *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* But she refuses to let go of control. *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* I'm breaking again~ *Tears start falling heavily down my face.* I'm breaking & shattering again!~ *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* I'm breaking & shattering again~. As the excruciating~ Agonizing~ Pain~ deep within my soul~ gets worse & worse~ and more~ painful!~ *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* I can't breathe!~ *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* We were finally!~ *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* Together!~ *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* But now!~ We are apart!~ *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* Again!~ And this time!~ *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* He let her!~ *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* hurt me again!~ *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *More & more tears fall heavily down my face.* I can't breathe!~ *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *Hic!* *I start crying loudly in horrible excruciating agonizing pain.*
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No FicciónThis will be a daily journal kind of thing. I will post whatever happens. Hope whoever reads this like's, it even with the ups & downs. Any hate & I will block u.
